Disappearing_Dia
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Hi I am Dia,
I am 36 years old, 5'4 and weigh 18 stone 2.5 lbs / 254.5 Lbs. I plan for this to be the last time I ever type that.
I have always battled with my weight and have tried most diets from meal replacement to low carb to only eating between the hours of x and y and whilst I have always lost weight, at one point hitting my goal back in my 20's, here I am a decade on... pretty much back where I started.
In the last 10 years a lot has happened. A few main issues were being diagnosed with M.E and having chronic pain (fibro), Escaping an abusive relationship during which the weight piled on me (Drinking mainly to numb myself) and house moves/ general stress. Now I am living in a home I love with a partner who is supportive of me and I have dealt with the drinking as an emotional crutch, so now I figure it is time to get shot of the weight and make my outside match the person I feel on the inside.
I had my first weigh in on the 18th and my weight shocked me. I honestly had no clue I was that heavy. My housemate is joining me on this SW Journey as he has diabetes so I have support and my partner is also 100% with us.
I have found this first few days easier than I expected and I have not been hungry which surprised me. I am so used to being hungry all the time on "diets" and I like the fact rather than banning foods I get to "budget" Syns for them instead, means I can still have a glass of wine after a long day! I am hopeful that I will see at least some change when I get on the scales Monday - my "Goal" is a 3lb loss to bring me under the 18 stone mark.
I live right on the seafront so all of summer we have loads of holiday makers. I am tired of walking along sweating in leggings and a top, sweating walking up the hill to work as women in cute sundresses and shorts walk past me. Sick of feeling self conscious on the beach and wishing my swimsuit covered that bit more of me and would love to be able to walk into any shop, see a cute item and know they will have it to fit me. I want to look better and feel better both physically and mentally.
This is the start of my journey... I am in it for the long haul.
I am 36 years old, 5'4 and weigh 18 stone 2.5 lbs / 254.5 Lbs. I plan for this to be the last time I ever type that.
I have always battled with my weight and have tried most diets from meal replacement to low carb to only eating between the hours of x and y and whilst I have always lost weight, at one point hitting my goal back in my 20's, here I am a decade on... pretty much back where I started.
In the last 10 years a lot has happened. A few main issues were being diagnosed with M.E and having chronic pain (fibro), Escaping an abusive relationship during which the weight piled on me (Drinking mainly to numb myself) and house moves/ general stress. Now I am living in a home I love with a partner who is supportive of me and I have dealt with the drinking as an emotional crutch, so now I figure it is time to get shot of the weight and make my outside match the person I feel on the inside.
I had my first weigh in on the 18th and my weight shocked me. I honestly had no clue I was that heavy. My housemate is joining me on this SW Journey as he has diabetes so I have support and my partner is also 100% with us.
I have found this first few days easier than I expected and I have not been hungry which surprised me. I am so used to being hungry all the time on "diets" and I like the fact rather than banning foods I get to "budget" Syns for them instead, means I can still have a glass of wine after a long day! I am hopeful that I will see at least some change when I get on the scales Monday - my "Goal" is a 3lb loss to bring me under the 18 stone mark.
I live right on the seafront so all of summer we have loads of holiday makers. I am tired of walking along sweating in leggings and a top, sweating walking up the hill to work as women in cute sundresses and shorts walk past me. Sick of feeling self conscious on the beach and wishing my swimsuit covered that bit more of me and would love to be able to walk into any shop, see a cute item and know they will have it to fit me. I want to look better and feel better both physically and mentally.
This is the start of my journey... I am in it for the long haul.
