Aprilycm
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So I did diary day 1 quite successfully yesterday but only just thought about gaining some online support today. I don't expect (or encourage!) anyone to read this because it is most likely boring and i'm just doing it for me and something to look back on kind of like a blog? I am trying to think of all the small successes, for example yesterday I got diet pop instead of full fat, small I know, and today I had one of the (healthy) leftover fajitas instead of them both which I really wanted to. I have also been using less oil and less bread and trying to count calories using MFP. I have had a few ice lollies because i've got very painful tonsillitis and it seems to be the only thing that soothes my throat and i'm having no more than 2 a day, they're small ones for kids. I'm also off sick this week because I was very ill last week and in hospital in resus because my airways had closed up to the point i could hardly breathe. Scary. Throat is still unbearably painful this week but i still manage to eat through the pain! Theres loads of reasons I want to lose weight but really the main one is I just don't like the way I look. I do worry about my health, but if i'm being honest I really do just hate the way I look. I want to go into a normal shop and buy some normal clothes. I want to be respected and look smart at work. My partner is amazing and loves me so much so this is just for me, he says he loves me no matter what and I believe him, but I still want to look good for him and look after myself.
It's only half 3 and i'm bored so I may update this later I may not but I'm focusing on the small things i'm doing as well as the big things.
Peace.
It's only half 3 and i'm bored so I may update this later I may not but I'm focusing on the small things i'm doing as well as the big things.
Peace.