I love baked sweet potato with really spicy chilli.
Feeling even worse yesterday and today, the boys are being such hard work, so hyper and not listening to anything I say, fighting loads and generally being little twerps, treating the house like a giant bouncy castle and winding the dog up constantly so she's Nipping them then they get upset. I was so emotionally tired yesterday from trying to keep calm and be patient that I went to bed at half 9 only to then have the bf have a go at me as he was sat on his own (he'd been in bed all day apart from 3 hours where we had to go and meet HIS mum for lunch, where the boys were awful too, then went back to bed as soon as we got home til they went to bed.) so I lost it and had a mini breakdown, he was no help at all, hasn't been today either, just went to bed when I got up, dog not walked again. I told him yday how horrible the day was and he didn't even ask me if I was ok, let alone ask me if I would like anything, even a cuppa and a hug would have helped, but no i just got told I need to stop self pitying myself. Absolute knob. We haven't really spoken since last night when he said that as it was probs the last thing I wanted to hear, I just wanted for once to not have to do everything and maybe just have someone make me feel a bit better, as the twins can make things feel like its all a bit much at times. I don't have any friends with kids who would understand, as all my friends are still in house shares and still go out and do what they want all the time. So I feel a bit lonely sometimes and bf doesn't get it at all, probably as he isn't really responsible for anything and never has been, he lives with us but its by no means equal, I can't remember the last time he cooked. Or asked me if I wanted anything, whereas all I get is 'I'm hungry' or 'wash this' or 'go get me a drink'
Starting to feel a bit like I'm somewhere I've been before (boys dad) and its making me miserable. My best friend was home from Norway this weekend and I really miss my friends, I don't even feel like I can ask him to look after the boys so I could have gone out and let off some steam.
Sorry everyone, I know I'm complaining I just don't really have anywhere to vent or anyone to vent too, and I know a lot of u have kids so might understand a bit more.
Hope you're all having a good weekend. I'm going to the beach to try and chill myself out and let the kids blow off some steam
Xxx