jezzi999 said:I just did something very shameful.
I need to own up to it and there's probably a better thread for it than this, but I need to say it and say it quick while I can.
After 5 months of no binging at all (after a very horrible couple of years of really life disrupting binging) I just caved.
Hubby is out, I have bad cramp and so I used various stupid excuses to feel sorry for myself and had a binge. And not a thoughtless "grab something and eat it binge" but a planned and prepared binge like I used to.
I actually spent the last hour fantasying about binge foods. And then went to the kitchen and made a huge batch of raw cookie dough (about the only thing I could physically make as we hardly have anything bad in the house apart from brown sugar).
The whole time I was making it I was thinking "i'm going to regret this, but sod it". And I was thinking how I'm going to have to admit it to you guys, and to my husband... But I made it anyway.
And then put it in a bowl, took it to bed and started eating it raw. What an animal. Thank *$EUR* it was so sickly, I only managed about 5 tablespoons. I'm looking at the rest of the batch now and even looking at it is making me heave. It's going in the bin right now.
I doubt it will make any different to my weight loss next week (Saturday weigh in), it's not about that, its the loss of control that's really scared me. I thought I had this pattern of "medicating" my crap moods with secret grim eating under control, but I spoke to soon. It's still a work in progress.
While it'd be well meant, please don't tell me to draw a line under it I'm not going to beat myself up but I do need to think about why I did this, and how I can stop it happening again, because I can't get back on to this roller coaster, I just can't do it again.
Sorry for sticking this here but part of my approach of tackling my binging over the last few months has been a "no secret eating" rule, as that's one of the worst bits of the binge eating. So i'm being honest on here, and honest with OH when he gets home.
....when you're in your 10th week of a cold I can't breathe, have a pounding head, feel so tired, sore ears and jaw and generally feel *****
Linz* said:Oh no hope it leaves you soon. Have you tried anti-biotics? they can prescribe them over the counter at the chemist now if it's for a cold/flu i think x
Shirleen said:Sounds like sinusitis so will need anti bs
Jess<3 said:dyjiw youve got nice hot log fire on, but im still freezing
ScarlettStar86 said:Not sure if you can get free ones but if you eat plenty of bio yogurt when on anti biotics it helps replace some of the good bacteria that gets killed off and less chance of getting thrush, I used to suffer badly but not had problems since following that tip x
mrstore said:I've had mega problems with it....every 3 weeks for years most of the time it's quite mild but other times I just want to pull my insides out just to scratch them!!! Too much info...sorry lol. I was prescribed a low dose tablet (fluco something or other) to take twice a week, but that can cause liver problems so I had to have blood tests so they could keep their eye on it. I've stopped taking them now and it's not been too bad recently to be honest.
I'll keep my eye out for the bio yogurt, thanks
I'm back on plan as of tomorrow as I've put roughly a stone back on in the last couple of months....struggled to get back on plan after our hols to France in August. I've been really really bad over the last few weeks (I blame the puppy lol). It's been a very stressful 5 weeks!! I've slipped back into old habits very easily.....and I can't say I've enjoyed it that much either. Eating enough to make me feel sick isn't fun!! I've felt bloated, none of my size 14 stuff fits any more, I have back fat again ....oh I could go on!!!! But I won't.....I've waffled far too much already!!!
Shirleen said:TMI ALERT!
The bio yogurt is also good if inserted iykwim?
Maybe Doc will give you some fluconazole as a pre-emptive measure. Even if its the cream x
TMI ALERT!
The bio yogurt is also good if inserted iykwim?
Maybe Doc will give you some fluconazole as a pre-emptive measure. Even if its the cream x
parfittaroles said:I was trying to think of a way to word that!
Malc-D said:great all i can think of is a yoghurt taking away a horrible irritable errm problem
and the relief sigh that follows .. ''mmm danone''
somethings a guy doesn't need to know about, and you wonder why we like being simple creatures
Lol you men aren't so simple last time I got the dreaded thrush it was a bloody boy that gave it to me!