Hi,
I'm Miche. I've been through a horrible time and out the other side now (we lost our home and trying to make a rented house our home in an area where I don't know anyone) things are not as desperate as they were but i'm lost, I feel like I've lost every bit of pride or liking for myself, I feel a faliure in every thing I do right now. I am working hard to try to get my qualifications up to scratch for university entry to become a midwife and I know I have a plan but at the minute being a stay at home mum with no spare money is really getting me down, I'm lonely, I don't go anywhere other than walk ing my eldest to school (I choose a school miles away because it was the best for my daughter) but I end up getting there looking terrible with frizzy hair, dirty walking shoes, fat and ugly not all glam like the other mothers getting out of their new cars. I'm in a place I never thought I would ever be and need to change. I am nearly 13 stone but to be honest my weight is the least of my worries right now but I see it as a stepping stone to feeling better, I just want to make that leap to gain some friends, some support, grow my confidence back. I wanted to join my community weight loss group but it would have cost £22 a month and I havn't the money for that.
I'm a lovely person who is normally full of life, I hate this self pity, I have a good life with two children and a good husband who works hard to support us. I just want to feel like I did before everyone knew we had money worries and debt, when I worked, had pride in myself and my home. It's all gone wrong and all though I have a plan for the future I'm not right in myself, I'm ugly through and through now, that's how I see myself. I want to change. I want to be an allrounded happy person. I know that it is me who has to get me out of this. I know it is me thats making me feel like this, no one else. I have to try to be positive and I see weight loss as something to start the process. I just hope I'm not setting myself up for another fall.
Thank you for listening, I know there's nothing you can say to me to help me, I've kind of helped myself by typing this all down.
Miche
I'm Miche. I've been through a horrible time and out the other side now (we lost our home and trying to make a rented house our home in an area where I don't know anyone) things are not as desperate as they were but i'm lost, I feel like I've lost every bit of pride or liking for myself, I feel a faliure in every thing I do right now. I am working hard to try to get my qualifications up to scratch for university entry to become a midwife and I know I have a plan but at the minute being a stay at home mum with no spare money is really getting me down, I'm lonely, I don't go anywhere other than walk ing my eldest to school (I choose a school miles away because it was the best for my daughter) but I end up getting there looking terrible with frizzy hair, dirty walking shoes, fat and ugly not all glam like the other mothers getting out of their new cars. I'm in a place I never thought I would ever be and need to change. I am nearly 13 stone but to be honest my weight is the least of my worries right now but I see it as a stepping stone to feeling better, I just want to make that leap to gain some friends, some support, grow my confidence back. I wanted to join my community weight loss group but it would have cost £22 a month and I havn't the money for that.
I'm a lovely person who is normally full of life, I hate this self pity, I have a good life with two children and a good husband who works hard to support us. I just want to feel like I did before everyone knew we had money worries and debt, when I worked, had pride in myself and my home. It's all gone wrong and all though I have a plan for the future I'm not right in myself, I'm ugly through and through now, that's how I see myself. I want to change. I want to be an allrounded happy person. I know that it is me who has to get me out of this. I know it is me thats making me feel like this, no one else. I have to try to be positive and I see weight loss as something to start the process. I just hope I'm not setting myself up for another fall.
Thank you for listening, I know there's nothing you can say to me to help me, I've kind of helped myself by typing this all down.
Miche