Sez
has started again!!
Its so true - thoughts control emotion, emotion controls eating.
I dont know if any you remember me from last year, but if so, you will remember that my sister and I have a dreadful relationship. Long long story, I wont go into, but she is a master at putting me down, making me feel sh*t and so on...... I am not just being bitchy, many others have the same opinion too, its just she doesnt see it! Thats why I think she is very lonely & getting nastier each year.
She, via email, had a pop at me yesterday. DH said to ignore it, but I couldnt. Whilst my head told me she was just being evil, my heart told me I am nor worth anything & I am as selfish as she tells me ( amongnst other things.)
I binged, I binged big time & this morning I got up & binged some more. I feel so low, totally rock bottom. I suppose part of what she says is right.
I feel I am pointless and might just as well give up now. (crying now:cry
Then I come on here, and I read all your support for each other and the support I have had from you guys too & maybe I am not so bad. You dont really know me, but when I post I speak from the heart. I am me, just you cant meet me, can you.
So, now I've got that off my chest I will try to finish this diet, whilst being me & ignoring her, once again. As DH says, this will eventually blow over, things will seem fine and she will do it all again. You'd think at my age I would have grown a much thicker skin wouldnt you?
Sorry for droning on.....
I dont know if any you remember me from last year, but if so, you will remember that my sister and I have a dreadful relationship. Long long story, I wont go into, but she is a master at putting me down, making me feel sh*t and so on...... I am not just being bitchy, many others have the same opinion too, its just she doesnt see it! Thats why I think she is very lonely & getting nastier each year.
She, via email, had a pop at me yesterday. DH said to ignore it, but I couldnt. Whilst my head told me she was just being evil, my heart told me I am nor worth anything & I am as selfish as she tells me ( amongnst other things.)
I binged, I binged big time & this morning I got up & binged some more. I feel so low, totally rock bottom. I suppose part of what she says is right.
I feel I am pointless and might just as well give up now. (crying now:cry
Then I come on here, and I read all your support for each other and the support I have had from you guys too & maybe I am not so bad. You dont really know me, but when I post I speak from the heart. I am me, just you cant meet me, can you.
So, now I've got that off my chest I will try to finish this diet, whilst being me & ignoring her, once again. As DH says, this will eventually blow over, things will seem fine and she will do it all again. You'd think at my age I would have grown a much thicker skin wouldnt you?
Sorry for droning on.....