BeckyBunny
Full Member
I've found it really easy to stick to the plan for the last 5 weeks and been able to say no to lots of things like cakes and takeaways etc..
However today I suffered an epic fail which I just didnt see coming, and to be honest didnt even think about until afterwards. I am a teacher and have been really ill the last few days with a sore throat, cold, aches, pains, exhaustion, flu like symptoms etc. Was off work yesterday as I couldnt move but I dragged myself in today as I knew that I had to help my 6th formers fill in their UCAS forms today and I'm one of only 6 teachers trained to help them so i thought it was important. Went in only to find that my school had transferred me to supervise the Year 8 summer fete which involved me trying desperately to corralle 220 students and hundreds of parents / members of the public around the fields that had various stalls set out. I felt like I was about to die and whilst delirious with fever I bought and ate two cupcakes without even thinking about it. Then, when it was lunchtime I was about to go up to my classroom to get my tupperware pot of cousous and salad I was told that I had to stay and keep and eye on the fete during lunch as they were short staffed and so I was forced to cobble together lunch out of what I could purchase from stalls which basically involved 1 more cupcake, an iced biscuit and a small bag of popcorn! EEK!
Just as I thought i was getting it under control, I found out that tragically one of my favourite Year 12 students took her own life yesterday and I ended up in floods of tears, blubbing into my handbag, and before I knew it i'd eaten my way through a massive mag of mini eggs as well!
I know that I am now back on track and I wont "cheat" again for a while, but am just angry at myself for letting go so much today and consuming these "empty" sins. It wasnt even worth it as I can't taste much as I'm so bunged up, and I didnt even enjoy it as I was rushing around so much and it was more for comfort than anything else. Just feeling a bit pants today and am miffed that I had so many sins and it wasnt even an enjoyable day! Normally if you have too many sins at least you enjoy yourself whilst you do it! x
However today I suffered an epic fail which I just didnt see coming, and to be honest didnt even think about until afterwards. I am a teacher and have been really ill the last few days with a sore throat, cold, aches, pains, exhaustion, flu like symptoms etc. Was off work yesterday as I couldnt move but I dragged myself in today as I knew that I had to help my 6th formers fill in their UCAS forms today and I'm one of only 6 teachers trained to help them so i thought it was important. Went in only to find that my school had transferred me to supervise the Year 8 summer fete which involved me trying desperately to corralle 220 students and hundreds of parents / members of the public around the fields that had various stalls set out. I felt like I was about to die and whilst delirious with fever I bought and ate two cupcakes without even thinking about it. Then, when it was lunchtime I was about to go up to my classroom to get my tupperware pot of cousous and salad I was told that I had to stay and keep and eye on the fete during lunch as they were short staffed and so I was forced to cobble together lunch out of what I could purchase from stalls which basically involved 1 more cupcake, an iced biscuit and a small bag of popcorn! EEK!
Just as I thought i was getting it under control, I found out that tragically one of my favourite Year 12 students took her own life yesterday and I ended up in floods of tears, blubbing into my handbag, and before I knew it i'd eaten my way through a massive mag of mini eggs as well!
I know that I am now back on track and I wont "cheat" again for a while, but am just angry at myself for letting go so much today and consuming these "empty" sins. It wasnt even worth it as I can't taste much as I'm so bunged up, and I didnt even enjoy it as I was rushing around so much and it was more for comfort than anything else. Just feeling a bit pants today and am miffed that I had so many sins and it wasnt even an enjoyable day! Normally if you have too many sins at least you enjoy yourself whilst you do it! x