Just Do It
Full Member
Hi,
This was my last week of foundation and I was very surprised to feel incredibly apprehensive when the LLC mentioned getting the before and after photos back.
She actually showed mine to a new lady having a pop in before the meeting started and the reaction of disbelief of the new lady made me quite shakey.
When she eventually gave them out I had an extremely emotional reation, and a physical reaction in my stomach. I was shocked at the sight of myself before. How could I have allowed myself to become like that.
No wonder I feel like a different person, I AM a different person. I am only just realising that the lack of respect I had for my body totally mirrored the way I allowed myself to be treated like a doormat by anyone and everyone.
I am only just realising what a debilitating state of mind I was in at the time, and how that invaded every aspect of my life.
As an example, there are useful technical forums that can help me with my job, I didn't dare even to register. I once had the on-line form on screen as I need an answer to something and I was sweating and backed out without joining.
I had to summon up every ounce of will power to join Minimins. I fretted about posting (still feel a bit nervous). But I can see that as the weight has come off my confidence has been building and I have started to give rep and even my latest achievement PM a lovely person.
How therapeutic is Minimins!!!!
(Sorry for waffling on but I was sooooo affected by the photos I needed to get it out)
Claire
This was my last week of foundation and I was very surprised to feel incredibly apprehensive when the LLC mentioned getting the before and after photos back.
She actually showed mine to a new lady having a pop in before the meeting started and the reaction of disbelief of the new lady made me quite shakey.
When she eventually gave them out I had an extremely emotional reation, and a physical reaction in my stomach. I was shocked at the sight of myself before. How could I have allowed myself to become like that.
No wonder I feel like a different person, I AM a different person. I am only just realising that the lack of respect I had for my body totally mirrored the way I allowed myself to be treated like a doormat by anyone and everyone.
I am only just realising what a debilitating state of mind I was in at the time, and how that invaded every aspect of my life.
As an example, there are useful technical forums that can help me with my job, I didn't dare even to register. I once had the on-line form on screen as I need an answer to something and I was sweating and backed out without joining.
I had to summon up every ounce of will power to join Minimins. I fretted about posting (still feel a bit nervous). But I can see that as the weight has come off my confidence has been building and I have started to give rep and even my latest achievement PM a lovely person.
How therapeutic is Minimins!!!!
(Sorry for waffling on but I was sooooo affected by the photos I needed to get it out)
Claire