LadyHelen
No Coffee, No Workee
Hi guys, hope you're all doing OK. I'm still reading here even if I'm not posting very much. A lot of the time I'm so tired and hurt so much (epilepsy/fibromyalgia) that keeping up with all my online stuff is impossible. :cry:
Anyway. I had a horrific FAIL day of epic proportions yesterday. The morning was OK, the usual Weetabix and banana at breakfast, a Hi-fi bar and another banana at work in the morning, but the wheels fell off at lunchtime. :sigh:
My friend and I were taking our other friend out for lunch for her birthday so she got to choose the venue - she chose the local Italian all you can eat buffet. Oh boy.
I knew before I went in that unless I had a plate of lettuce, tomato and cucumber there was nothing SW friendly on offer.
So what did I do? Instead of having 1/3 plate of salad and some other stuff which would have been sensible, I pigged myself stupid on lasagne, pasta, pizza and creamy salads and then even went back for more. I don't even know why, I was full after the first plate. :cry:
Last night I felt so ill that I didn't bother trying to eat dinner. In the end I had a yogurt and a banana so I could take my medication and a hi-fi bar later when I actually was hungry.
I want to do this so badly, more than anything else in the world but I keep pressing the self-destruct button. I just don't know why. :break_diet:
Sorry guys, I think I needed to vent more than anything else. I know what I need to do, I just need to actually DO it. And somehow keep my finger off the button and stop letting my evil subconscious mind sabotage and destroy my chances of losing weight.
If I'm not going to completely spoil my chances of losing any weight at all this week I'm going to try to stick to 5 syns a day or less for the rest of it. WI is on Wednesday morning.
Thanks for listening.
Anyway. I had a horrific FAIL day of epic proportions yesterday. The morning was OK, the usual Weetabix and banana at breakfast, a Hi-fi bar and another banana at work in the morning, but the wheels fell off at lunchtime. :sigh:
My friend and I were taking our other friend out for lunch for her birthday so she got to choose the venue - she chose the local Italian all you can eat buffet. Oh boy.
I knew before I went in that unless I had a plate of lettuce, tomato and cucumber there was nothing SW friendly on offer.
So what did I do? Instead of having 1/3 plate of salad and some other stuff which would have been sensible, I pigged myself stupid on lasagne, pasta, pizza and creamy salads and then even went back for more. I don't even know why, I was full after the first plate. :cry:
Last night I felt so ill that I didn't bother trying to eat dinner. In the end I had a yogurt and a banana so I could take my medication and a hi-fi bar later when I actually was hungry.
I want to do this so badly, more than anything else in the world but I keep pressing the self-destruct button. I just don't know why. :break_diet:
Sorry guys, I think I needed to vent more than anything else. I know what I need to do, I just need to actually DO it. And somehow keep my finger off the button and stop letting my evil subconscious mind sabotage and destroy my chances of losing weight.
If I'm not going to completely spoil my chances of losing any weight at all this week I'm going to try to stick to 5 syns a day or less for the rest of it. WI is on Wednesday morning.
Thanks for listening.
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