The battery went on our scales so I haven't weighed myself since coming back from the UK and I've been good this week . . .yet I still feel incredibly lumpy and fat.
Thing is, if I stood on scales and they said I'd only gained a pound, I wouldn't feel as bad. Why do we rely on these bloody machines so much to make us feel good? Probably because my body image is buggered after so many years of being the biggest - now I always think I am even when clearly I'm not. Sometimes I wonder if this is why I'm forever on a "diet" - getting to goal, putting some pounds back on, dieting (in a fashion ) again - because in my mind I'm never "slim" so what does a few more pounds mean?
Does anyone else feel this way . . . or am I a rambling idiot ?
Anyway, getting a battery today so I can WI on Monday. Fingers crossed.
Thing is, if I stood on scales and they said I'd only gained a pound, I wouldn't feel as bad. Why do we rely on these bloody machines so much to make us feel good? Probably because my body image is buggered after so many years of being the biggest - now I always think I am even when clearly I'm not. Sometimes I wonder if this is why I'm forever on a "diet" - getting to goal, putting some pounds back on, dieting (in a fashion ) again - because in my mind I'm never "slim" so what does a few more pounds mean?
Does anyone else feel this way . . . or am I a rambling idiot ?
Anyway, getting a battery today so I can WI on Monday. Fingers crossed.