im sending you a big hug. Alot of ppl ahve been through what u have, ive gone through times when ive been so sad and just cried adn all ive wanted to do is eat...but i didnt!!! and boy am i glad! no food would ever make me as happy as seeing my size 12 figure in the mirror and feeling so much more happy and sexy!!!! You are strong and LT will help u to realise food will not ease or solve ure problems, if u need to haev a cry its fine, it helped me, its ok to feel down and sad as we are putting our bodies through alot. just acknowledging its ok to be sad sometimes help. Hope ypu feel better soon and let me know how u get on. Just please STICK TO IT!!! dont give up, it is SOO NOT WORTH IT!!!!