I took the plunge and have made an appointment to see my counsellor tomorrow. I want to stop being dependent on food. My life is controlled by food.
I am so scared of starting the cambridge plan at the same time. I am so scared of the horrible feelings I get when I don't have food to calm my nerves.
My stomach hurts from bingeing. My head hurts from bingeing. I am so full I can hardly walk. I am scared of going out of the house.
But I have to get out of this rut that I put myself in.
I have to.
I am so scared of starting the cambridge plan at the same time. I am so scared of the horrible feelings I get when I don't have food to calm my nerves.
My stomach hurts from bingeing. My head hurts from bingeing. I am so full I can hardly walk. I am scared of going out of the house.
But I have to get out of this rut that I put myself in.
I have to.