Well, have a bit of a confession to make. Had a somewhat stressful day a couple of days back and dont ask me why, but I just felt I needed a glass of wine. Now I know this is absolute madness and reading my previous posts, I honsestly dont know why I succumbed. But I did - and downed 3 glasses!
I have to say, thankfully I am not one of those people who normally hit the bottle in a crisis which is probably just as well because with my former complulsive eating habits, it is most likely that my liver would be pickled if I compulsively drank alcohol!
Anyway, did I stop there...did I heck! Had the full whack - ciabatta bread and cheese, packet of crisps followed by a toffee crisp.
I am not really sure why I went so badly off the rails, but I just felt I needed to have a bit of a blow out. I did however go straight back on to mealpacks the following day.
So I have been ruminating ever since. I have not really felt deprived since starting my weight loss journey. Due to holidays, days off plan, Christmas, etc, I have had plenty of opportunity to indulge in carbs and alcohol. So why did I do it? Hormones perhaps...I sort of ruled that one out because I have managed to get through TOTM with no problems before, however due to my being in the premenopausal age, hormones could be all over the place...so that is a possibility.
Then I considered emotional crisis, but had plenty of those in the past 12 months and I have managed to stay strong.
So I am putting it down to 'just one of those things'. I had a blow out and am back on track. Does this happen to 'normal' people (and by that, I mean people who are in the normal healthy weight range)? It probably does, except it's not a major drama for them. Truthfully I have been overweight for over 25 years, so I forget what it's like to have a normal relationship with food.
Anyway, enough of my ramblings, hope everyone having a good week so far. Going to be another busy one for me but hope to catch up with all your diaries at the weekend.
I have to say, thankfully I am not one of those people who normally hit the bottle in a crisis which is probably just as well because with my former complulsive eating habits, it is most likely that my liver would be pickled if I compulsively drank alcohol!
Anyway, did I stop there...did I heck! Had the full whack - ciabatta bread and cheese, packet of crisps followed by a toffee crisp.
I am not really sure why I went so badly off the rails, but I just felt I needed to have a bit of a blow out. I did however go straight back on to mealpacks the following day.
So I have been ruminating ever since. I have not really felt deprived since starting my weight loss journey. Due to holidays, days off plan, Christmas, etc, I have had plenty of opportunity to indulge in carbs and alcohol. So why did I do it? Hormones perhaps...I sort of ruled that one out because I have managed to get through TOTM with no problems before, however due to my being in the premenopausal age, hormones could be all over the place...so that is a possibility.
Then I considered emotional crisis, but had plenty of those in the past 12 months and I have managed to stay strong.
So I am putting it down to 'just one of those things'. I had a blow out and am back on track. Does this happen to 'normal' people (and by that, I mean people who are in the normal healthy weight range)? It probably does, except it's not a major drama for them. Truthfully I have been overweight for over 25 years, so I forget what it's like to have a normal relationship with food.
Anyway, enough of my ramblings, hope everyone having a good week so far. Going to be another busy one for me but hope to catch up with all your diaries at the weekend.