HI!
This is #2 as my little one lost my first msg when it was 2/3 way through!! Aaaarrrggghh!! Oh well..
Anyway.. I digress.. as per!!!! So I had another 3 lb loss last night which I felt I didn’t deserve as I am still in the binge – vomit cycle.. (Not heard anything from the referral yet btw)!!
Counselling was great though last night as there were only 3 of us again.. I was honest about what’s going on with me and got some great advice support and a plan.. ( I’ll come back to that in case it’s of help to anyone else with young kids etc!!)
The crux of my post is that my LLC very nicely and caringly explained that if I don’t stop the vomiting by the next time I see her ( she’s away next week and I am prob away wk after)!! That she won’t be able to let me have any more packs.. BLIMEY!!! Also she is in contact with the local CDC and will advise them not to sell to me either.. how about THAT for motivation? I know it sounds harsh but she did say it in a lovely way and it is true.. I know I can’t continue if this is what happens…
Soo.. today is my fresh start.. Haven’t vomited since yesterday lunchtime and not going to ANY MORE!!!!!!
Here are the tools to help me:
· When I start to eat / am tempted to eat.. stop and think or if I do eat stop and think that I don’t have to continue accept that I have had that mouthful or whatever and stop there.. it doesn’t have to turn into a full blown binge and I am not going to vomit so I will only be hurting myself If I continue to eat
· My trainee counsellor best pal said that sometimes changing the sense in moments like that can help.. so instead of taste / smell make a visual impact.. she said poss. look at my slim ankles or go to the mirror to see my cheek bones emerging.. that may be enough distraction to stop me.. worth a try!!!
· Also tea time feeding the boys is my worst time so I am going to eat with friends and their kids 3 x week take them out 1 x week ( café etc ( don’t have probs with this except for money)!! And DH can feed them the other 3 times
· I do worry about what effect our dieting and even more so the vomiting is having on them especially as we have been looking into our own childhood and the effects it’s had on us…
· Also I have phone m=numbers of LL members and my pals to call when feeding the kids as there will be times I’m struggling so I will just stay on the phone until the leftovers are in the bin with anti bac on them!!!
This is #2 as my little one lost my first msg when it was 2/3 way through!! Aaaarrrggghh!! Oh well..
Anyway.. I digress.. as per!!!! So I had another 3 lb loss last night which I felt I didn’t deserve as I am still in the binge – vomit cycle.. (Not heard anything from the referral yet btw)!!
Counselling was great though last night as there were only 3 of us again.. I was honest about what’s going on with me and got some great advice support and a plan.. ( I’ll come back to that in case it’s of help to anyone else with young kids etc!!)
The crux of my post is that my LLC very nicely and caringly explained that if I don’t stop the vomiting by the next time I see her ( she’s away next week and I am prob away wk after)!! That she won’t be able to let me have any more packs.. BLIMEY!!! Also she is in contact with the local CDC and will advise them not to sell to me either.. how about THAT for motivation? I know it sounds harsh but she did say it in a lovely way and it is true.. I know I can’t continue if this is what happens…
Soo.. today is my fresh start.. Haven’t vomited since yesterday lunchtime and not going to ANY MORE!!!!!!
Here are the tools to help me:
· When I start to eat / am tempted to eat.. stop and think or if I do eat stop and think that I don’t have to continue accept that I have had that mouthful or whatever and stop there.. it doesn’t have to turn into a full blown binge and I am not going to vomit so I will only be hurting myself If I continue to eat
· My trainee counsellor best pal said that sometimes changing the sense in moments like that can help.. so instead of taste / smell make a visual impact.. she said poss. look at my slim ankles or go to the mirror to see my cheek bones emerging.. that may be enough distraction to stop me.. worth a try!!!
· Also tea time feeding the boys is my worst time so I am going to eat with friends and their kids 3 x week take them out 1 x week ( café etc ( don’t have probs with this except for money)!! And DH can feed them the other 3 times
· I do worry about what effect our dieting and even more so the vomiting is having on them especially as we have been looking into our own childhood and the effects it’s had on us…
· Also I have phone m=numbers of LL members and my pals to call when feeding the kids as there will be times I’m struggling so I will just stay on the phone until the leftovers are in the bin with anti bac on them!!!