princessnicky
Full Member
Hi all, just need a little advice on a situation thats really getting me down :-(
I had been best friends with a girl for 7 years and always thought of her as a sister i never had. I had a baby in 2010 and and she was godmum to my DD and she was the only person in the whole world, who if anything ever happened to me and OH that i would have wanted to care for my DD.
Since i had DD i saw her less and less,. I blame myself, but being up late with DD in the night, going back to work, and then once OH finished work and we had dinner and put DD to bed it was almost 9pm. I also had undiagnosed fibromyalgia which i think didnt help very much. I think that her hearing about my mummy friends that i would see in the daytime, may have sparked some jealously? Im really unsure, but maybe thinking to much and imagining things.
Anyway.... The last time i saw her was xmas eve 2010. It was my DD 1st bday in the Feb2010 and the saturday we had family over and the sunday we had all the godparents and close friends Over (small house so couldnt all do it at once). I never even received a text, call or even facebook message to wish my LO a happy birthday. Even people that hadnt met aimee did these, and i was quite upset. She was meant to come over on the sunday, so i texted in the morning asking what time she was coming so i knew when to put DD down for her nap so she would get to see her. She said she would text when she knew herself as she had been out he night before and never made it home (must of met someone...but ive no idea) I texted her at 6.30pm that night and asked if she was coming, and she said she wasnt as she was still in bristol. I was so upset and hurt and had to hold back the tears. No apology or anything. I really thought she loved the bones of my DD and the thought she would do anything and never let me or her down.
She texted a few times after to come drop the present off but the days she suggested were days i worked ( which she knew).about 3 weeks later as we were packing up and moving house ( she didnt even know where we were moving to, or ask) she texted saying could she drop it over that night. No, we were literally loading the last box into the van. So she said she would leave it on the doorstep, and i said not to as we wouldnt be back and it would get stolen. So she said if i didnt want it she would give it to someone else.
And that was it. I texted her happy birthday on her birthday the month after and in the summer i was deleted as a facebook friend which she never does. I then found out the day after her nan died (who she lived with) and thought that that she wouldnt want me getting in contact . So i didnt, and to this day i think i made the wrong decision.
Not a day goes past where i dont think or her. Lately i cant shift the 'lost' feeling and think its to do with her. I cant talk to my OH as he has no time for her anymore. Everyone ive spoke to thinks that i dont need a friend like her. Im just still so hurt, angry and upset, but miss her so much at the same time. I really do know what to do.
Any advice would be hugely appreciated xxxx
I had been best friends with a girl for 7 years and always thought of her as a sister i never had. I had a baby in 2010 and and she was godmum to my DD and she was the only person in the whole world, who if anything ever happened to me and OH that i would have wanted to care for my DD.
Since i had DD i saw her less and less,. I blame myself, but being up late with DD in the night, going back to work, and then once OH finished work and we had dinner and put DD to bed it was almost 9pm. I also had undiagnosed fibromyalgia which i think didnt help very much. I think that her hearing about my mummy friends that i would see in the daytime, may have sparked some jealously? Im really unsure, but maybe thinking to much and imagining things.
Anyway.... The last time i saw her was xmas eve 2010. It was my DD 1st bday in the Feb2010 and the saturday we had family over and the sunday we had all the godparents and close friends Over (small house so couldnt all do it at once). I never even received a text, call or even facebook message to wish my LO a happy birthday. Even people that hadnt met aimee did these, and i was quite upset. She was meant to come over on the sunday, so i texted in the morning asking what time she was coming so i knew when to put DD down for her nap so she would get to see her. She said she would text when she knew herself as she had been out he night before and never made it home (must of met someone...but ive no idea) I texted her at 6.30pm that night and asked if she was coming, and she said she wasnt as she was still in bristol. I was so upset and hurt and had to hold back the tears. No apology or anything. I really thought she loved the bones of my DD and the thought she would do anything and never let me or her down.
She texted a few times after to come drop the present off but the days she suggested were days i worked ( which she knew).about 3 weeks later as we were packing up and moving house ( she didnt even know where we were moving to, or ask) she texted saying could she drop it over that night. No, we were literally loading the last box into the van. So she said she would leave it on the doorstep, and i said not to as we wouldnt be back and it would get stolen. So she said if i didnt want it she would give it to someone else.
And that was it. I texted her happy birthday on her birthday the month after and in the summer i was deleted as a facebook friend which she never does. I then found out the day after her nan died (who she lived with) and thought that that she wouldnt want me getting in contact . So i didnt, and to this day i think i made the wrong decision.
Not a day goes past where i dont think or her. Lately i cant shift the 'lost' feeling and think its to do with her. I cant talk to my OH as he has no time for her anymore. Everyone ive spoke to thinks that i dont need a friend like her. Im just still so hurt, angry and upset, but miss her so much at the same time. I really do know what to do.
Any advice would be hugely appreciated xxxx