mantha16
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fatty mcfattypuss was the nickname I gave my cat who wasn't fat but I just liked it, I also wanted to call the cat sir meowser despite her being a girl but thats a whole other story. but I like the name for my diary.
Well its exactly 7 days till I go to my first ever slimming world class so I shall be calling this week the final fattypuss week, cos I'm a bit weird like that.
I'm spending this week eating up all the junk in my room ready for the far healthier shop I will be doing next week. reading other peoples diarys has been pretty inspiring so I thought I'd give it a go, now I can't swear I'll post every day but I think making myself come here and post when mr temptation comes knocking at the door might be helpful, I'll also come and post my WI's etc as I'm not telling my RL friends until I've lost a few stone so I know I'm gonna stick it out this time.
I guess I should start with why now, well after gallstones last year I knew it was a matter of time before I had to address my weight but I'll be honest the main reason is I'm 36 single and childless and I can hear the biological clock ticking at a furious rate. I know big women get married and have kids but I'm disgusted by what I see in the mirror and I think tht disgust and lack of confidence probably puts men off.
I'm sick of abuse in the streets and people treating me with contempt. my weight also holds me back career wise as my weight makes me lazy and unable to try to progress even in my current job working in a supermarket. I work on a checkout and I don't want to multi-skill as the other jobs I could do all involve being on my feet constantly which I simply cannot do because the pressure on my feet and back is physically very painful. I hate how customers look down their noses thinking I'm "just" a cashier. I have a degree (admittedly in criminology but still I got a 2:1 and worked damn hard for it) and want to retrain as a social worker next year (if the government doesnt withdraw the NHS bursarys for social work) I also volunteer for victim support and hopefully will soon be helping them out with some admin work so I have positives in my life but my body image and weight depress me so much sometimes I just don't see the point.
Well I'll be darned if I'm gonna turn 40 and still feel like that!!!!!
Well its exactly 7 days till I go to my first ever slimming world class so I shall be calling this week the final fattypuss week, cos I'm a bit weird like that.
I'm spending this week eating up all the junk in my room ready for the far healthier shop I will be doing next week. reading other peoples diarys has been pretty inspiring so I thought I'd give it a go, now I can't swear I'll post every day but I think making myself come here and post when mr temptation comes knocking at the door might be helpful, I'll also come and post my WI's etc as I'm not telling my RL friends until I've lost a few stone so I know I'm gonna stick it out this time.
I guess I should start with why now, well after gallstones last year I knew it was a matter of time before I had to address my weight but I'll be honest the main reason is I'm 36 single and childless and I can hear the biological clock ticking at a furious rate. I know big women get married and have kids but I'm disgusted by what I see in the mirror and I think tht disgust and lack of confidence probably puts men off.
I'm sick of abuse in the streets and people treating me with contempt. my weight also holds me back career wise as my weight makes me lazy and unable to try to progress even in my current job working in a supermarket. I work on a checkout and I don't want to multi-skill as the other jobs I could do all involve being on my feet constantly which I simply cannot do because the pressure on my feet and back is physically very painful. I hate how customers look down their noses thinking I'm "just" a cashier. I have a degree (admittedly in criminology but still I got a 2:1 and worked damn hard for it) and want to retrain as a social worker next year (if the government doesnt withdraw the NHS bursarys for social work) I also volunteer for victim support and hopefully will soon be helping them out with some admin work so I have positives in my life but my body image and weight depress me so much sometimes I just don't see the point.
Well I'll be darned if I'm gonna turn 40 and still feel like that!!!!!