Nellyphant
Silver Member
This is such a fabulous thread, thank you.
I grew up with my Mum not eating until the evening and always calling me fat - which when I look at photos now I can't understand why she did and my Nana calling herself fat all the time and then stuffing her face (which she still does and she's 84) so it's no wonder my relationship with food is warped.
I've been keeping a journal for over a year now to try and sort out my depression a bit. Just before New Year I read back to last New Year and then kept reading. I was basically writing the same thing every day "eating out of control, hate myself, I'm ugly". So I thought, that's my biggest bug bear, I have a fabulous DH & DD and I deserve to love myself like they love me and deserve to look after myself so I contacted a CDC.
Since starting CD on Friday I've put my journal in the kitchen so that when I'm bored/lonely or whatever and feel like eating I write how I'm feeling. Yesterday was a tough day and I wrote in it 4 times which resulted in 2 full A4 pages being written by the time I went to bed but it stopped crooked thinking and focussed me again.
I grew up with my Mum not eating until the evening and always calling me fat - which when I look at photos now I can't understand why she did and my Nana calling herself fat all the time and then stuffing her face (which she still does and she's 84) so it's no wonder my relationship with food is warped.
I've been keeping a journal for over a year now to try and sort out my depression a bit. Just before New Year I read back to last New Year and then kept reading. I was basically writing the same thing every day "eating out of control, hate myself, I'm ugly". So I thought, that's my biggest bug bear, I have a fabulous DH & DD and I deserve to love myself like they love me and deserve to look after myself so I contacted a CDC.
Since starting CD on Friday I've put my journal in the kitchen so that when I'm bored/lonely or whatever and feel like eating I write how I'm feeling. Yesterday was a tough day and I wrote in it 4 times which resulted in 2 full A4 pages being written by the time I went to bed but it stopped crooked thinking and focussed me again.