Hi girls,
Struggling this week, mentally a hard week for me. With still coming to terms with failing the exam and everything. It's definitely the most challenging time for me. I'd to face the music in work today, tell my boss, watch all the surprised looks when I told colleagues I'd failed. KILLER. The question from my boss about how soon am I going to repeat. Ugh, gimme time to get over it lol.
I'm going to skip WI tomorrow again and give myself a break from the pressure I'm putting myself under. I've logged everything in MFP, so all is not lost but I've been picking all week, healthy, but picking all the same. Then I was really annoyed with myself yesterday. I'd friends and their kids over for dinner, I hadn't thought it through and made my mango prawn curry with jasmine rice. They know about the diet, but I didn't want the awkwardness of me cooking for everyone and sitting at the table and not eating so I had a small portion, my own decision, but I'm not happy, I should have had it planned to cook meat and veg for us all or make myself a salad or something 'better'. OMG I felt sick and bloated from the rice, it was crazy! And lasted for a few hours while I downed the water in the hopes of feeling better. I'd also I reckon threw me out of ketosis, so by 1pm today I'd already had 2 packs, I managed to get through to this evening for the third, so I am back, but this is the first time I really feel like I should have done better.
I know I just have to get over it, but it's hard. One plus is I'd made a rhubarb and raspberry crumble with custard for dessert and I completely resisted that. (That's the next crumble flavour exante need to come up with !)
We really are our own worst critics aren't we!
Edited to say: AND it's TOTM, I'm never in a good mental place at this time, it's proper nuts!