Okay, I am feeling totally screwed up diet wise. I do not know where I am headin or whether I should be heading anywhere at all. I know my tummy is still big, most of it is lose skin and I know it is because I have had so many children but I keep thinking if I lose more weight more of it will go, but will it, and I dont seem to have the willpower or inclination to move back down the plans to lose the weight. I like eating with my family and eating what they are eating. I decided yesterday to try weightwatchers as I find it easier to count points than calories, so stuck to it all day and even had sorted out a WW meal in my freezer and counted that in with my points, but come dinner time I wanted to eat what the rest of the family ate and didn't have enough points so ate it anyway plus a slice of the carrot cake (well someone has to finish it up as most of the children complained they dont like carrots, they dont like cream cheese)... so just me and hubby then. So totally blew it as had chilli with oven cooked baguettes and I didn't just have one piece of baguette I had two, so the scales have gone up this morning nearly 1.5lb. I know it will go soon enough but there is no way I am going to lose weight trying to eat normally. So here are a few points I need to get clear in my head...
If I lose more weight will I lose more tummy?
I guess it is possible but if the rest of me gets smaller then my stomach will also shrink in proportion and will still look the same size in proportion to me as it does now but may be even more saggy. Solution could be start toning exercises, you have enough exercise machine things to help and get that flippin Slendertone on it wont help sitting in the bag.
If I stop losing weight I no longer have a goal to aim for...
This is true and this is a difficult one, but maybe you can aim to become more fit and more toned instead. Measure yourself and take measurements each week, see if there is an improvement.
If I dont lose the weight I have promised myself then I will feel like I have failed and I dont like to fail.... ever!!!!
Okay, well your original goal was 10 stone, then you changed it to 10 stone 5 which you achieved, then you decided to lose another 12lb. Why? You fit into anything from a size 8 to a size 12 clothes depending on the store and if you tried toning you would probably tone up a few inches too.... how scrawny do you want to be? Maybe as a compromise you should stick to your original 10 stone goal, or if you want to compromise and get into the 9s, just go down to 9 stone 13... you were only 2lb away from that before you ate badly yesterday.
Will I spend the rest of my life feeling hungry?
Hmm I dont know the answer to this one, so if anyone can help out I would be grateful.
Okay so what is your plan today?
Right, I am going to do more exercise than I have been doing, although I have done a little bit each day, haven't felt too well since Saturday though... I will lose weight down to 9 stone 13lb and then maintain there, shouldn't be too hard to shift those extra few lbs, although will be eating out on Friday but should burn any extra calories off at the U2 concert at Wembley Stadium on Friday night... will eat with my family, but will make better choices, and have told hubby this morning that I will be cooking healthy meals each day, but will not be cooking cakes and things, maybe a once or twice a week treat, I will stock up the freezer with ice-cream as the children like that and I am not so keen, so wont eat it.... (definately ha ha).
So I will check back here daily in a hope that I will be helping myself. I am going to change my ticker to reflect the weight I am now aiming for and will definately aim for only that and try toning up instead of losing weight.
Thanks for all your comments, especially yours Sunshine which I definately did relate to the jumping from one diet to the next diet bit....
