Jessica Rabbit72
Gold Member
Hey people have had a bit of a strange one today – not quite sure how to describe it really so will try my best without waffling.
I am normally a very happy outgoing person who is friendly with everyone and generally not a shy retiring wallflower. I have been yo-yo dieting for years never getting to goal but the most dramatic weight loss was 3 yrs ago doing LL/CD losing 4st 4 in 16 weeks.
Now when I did it that time I wanted to tell everyone about it and every time anyone asked about the diet I would happily chirp on about it to anyone who asked and how much I had lost etc and was really really proud.
I obviously have regained the weight over the last 3 years and by Xmas decided enough was enough and restarted CD in Feb. I told people about it and it wasn’t a problem.
I started working somewhere new in September so they have only known me as a ‘big’ girl – 5’3” and 15st 7 – (not exactly petite!)
At work we have a communal staff room and when staff from a different dept saw me making shakes they started a conversation about LL CD and LT and celebrity slim as the chemist next door has started to sell it and it was a thoroughly positive conversation. Some had done it some not.
As the weeks have gone on I have only seen the staff from the other departments once or a few times a week depending on dinner times etc and whenever they have seen me they have given me positive feedback asking how much I have lost etc and how well I look and how my face has changed so much etc.
Mums at school are also commenting when I pick the kids up how different and great I look which is lovely too and making the diet worthwhile.
Im also now starting to wear clothes that fit and being an apple shape my legs are going back to being skinny again so I think I look like I have lost more than I have.
(Dont worry there is a point to this story)
All was fine up till today. I went in the staff room and a woman I haven’t seen for ages said hey look at you don’t you look great you have done so well how much have you lost now ? I said 3stone (well 3 ½ if you count the ww weight loss before CD)
and I just wanted to be sick. My stomach is turning now thinking about the story as Im writing it. I could feel myself getting really embarrassed and I just had to get out of there.
She said oh you must be nearly at goal now (my first immediate thought in my head was – actually I’ve got another 2st till I get to healthy weight range and another 1/2st after that for goal) so I said oh no a bit to go yet
and she said are you eating yet so I said no but I will be before I go on holiday as I was leaving the room as I couldn’t get out of there quick enough, my stomach was turning and I thought I was going to be sick.
I have absolutely no idea why I had such a horrible reaction to her paying me a compliment and showing interest. Ive never normally been like that and why it then and now is turning my stomach thinking about it.
I think Im also worried that when I lose another stone people are going to start saying – oh you have lost enough now and you need to start eating etc and I am just going to have to lie to them and say Im eating a meal at home as I will have another 21lbs to go to get to goal and I don’t want the hassle explaining why Im not eating etc.
Then I start to worry about am I setting my goal too low and because everyone says I look fine now cos Im nearly in a size 14 trousers.
Any thoughts would be gladly welcomed!
xxx
I am normally a very happy outgoing person who is friendly with everyone and generally not a shy retiring wallflower. I have been yo-yo dieting for years never getting to goal but the most dramatic weight loss was 3 yrs ago doing LL/CD losing 4st 4 in 16 weeks.
Now when I did it that time I wanted to tell everyone about it and every time anyone asked about the diet I would happily chirp on about it to anyone who asked and how much I had lost etc and was really really proud.
I obviously have regained the weight over the last 3 years and by Xmas decided enough was enough and restarted CD in Feb. I told people about it and it wasn’t a problem.
I started working somewhere new in September so they have only known me as a ‘big’ girl – 5’3” and 15st 7 – (not exactly petite!)
At work we have a communal staff room and when staff from a different dept saw me making shakes they started a conversation about LL CD and LT and celebrity slim as the chemist next door has started to sell it and it was a thoroughly positive conversation. Some had done it some not.
As the weeks have gone on I have only seen the staff from the other departments once or a few times a week depending on dinner times etc and whenever they have seen me they have given me positive feedback asking how much I have lost etc and how well I look and how my face has changed so much etc.
Mums at school are also commenting when I pick the kids up how different and great I look which is lovely too and making the diet worthwhile.
Im also now starting to wear clothes that fit and being an apple shape my legs are going back to being skinny again so I think I look like I have lost more than I have.
(Dont worry there is a point to this story)
All was fine up till today. I went in the staff room and a woman I haven’t seen for ages said hey look at you don’t you look great you have done so well how much have you lost now ? I said 3stone (well 3 ½ if you count the ww weight loss before CD)
and I just wanted to be sick. My stomach is turning now thinking about the story as Im writing it. I could feel myself getting really embarrassed and I just had to get out of there.
She said oh you must be nearly at goal now (my first immediate thought in my head was – actually I’ve got another 2st till I get to healthy weight range and another 1/2st after that for goal) so I said oh no a bit to go yet
and she said are you eating yet so I said no but I will be before I go on holiday as I was leaving the room as I couldn’t get out of there quick enough, my stomach was turning and I thought I was going to be sick.
I have absolutely no idea why I had such a horrible reaction to her paying me a compliment and showing interest. Ive never normally been like that and why it then and now is turning my stomach thinking about it.
I think Im also worried that when I lose another stone people are going to start saying – oh you have lost enough now and you need to start eating etc and I am just going to have to lie to them and say Im eating a meal at home as I will have another 21lbs to go to get to goal and I don’t want the hassle explaining why Im not eating etc.
Then I start to worry about am I setting my goal too low and because everyone says I look fine now cos Im nearly in a size 14 trousers.
Any thoughts would be gladly welcomed!
xxx
