Roch
Minimins gal x
Morning u all, well here i am restarting CD again today for the last time.2 many times i have messed up my metabolism by jumping on and off ssing but enough is enough,i have decided that if i dont sucseed then i will 100% consider wls(gastric bypass) and i have been in touch with a wls sugeon.
Well as i sit here typing away today i restsrt CD at the weight of 27.3.
Being so super morbidly obese has ruined my life emotionally and phyisically and at 38 yrs old i actually feel like i cant carry on no more and i have 2 put a stop 2 it AS OF NOW !!!
I know i am the only one i can blame for allowing myself to become so big and there comes a time in your life where u need to stop wallowing in pity and blaming your weight on things that happened in your past,my past is my past,yes alot happened that was very hard,but it is my future that i need to start concentrating on and draw a line under my past as of today.
My beautiful 14 yr old son Aaron has missed out on sooo much because of my emotional and phyisical state,but from now on i will not let anything get in my way of sucseeding,as deep down i dont want to have wls as i am scared i will die during surgery !!
SO TODAY IS THE LAST DAY 1 FOR ME !!!!
I know this is going to be a hard and long emotional journey and i actually feel that i am in the right place emotionally to deal and cope with life without turning to food to console me.
December 31st 06 is going 2 be a turning point in my life where i am going to look back over the last 6 months and i am going to be proud of myself no matter what and look forward to 2007 being a healthy and productive year for me and my beautiful son.
Well girs n boys sorry this was a drawn out post(diary page) but up 2 nows i have been very good at keeping my emotions all bottled up, which does me no good.
Got 2 go and have my tetra.All i do know at the moment is that i am willing to give CD 110% for the first time and i actually feel that i am going to sucseed, i know there might be times when i fall down but as long as i get right back on immediately then i know i am giving it my all !!!
THANKS FOR OPENING UP THIS SITE !!
Well as i sit here typing away today i restsrt CD at the weight of 27.3.
Being so super morbidly obese has ruined my life emotionally and phyisically and at 38 yrs old i actually feel like i cant carry on no more and i have 2 put a stop 2 it AS OF NOW !!!
I know i am the only one i can blame for allowing myself to become so big and there comes a time in your life where u need to stop wallowing in pity and blaming your weight on things that happened in your past,my past is my past,yes alot happened that was very hard,but it is my future that i need to start concentrating on and draw a line under my past as of today.
My beautiful 14 yr old son Aaron has missed out on sooo much because of my emotional and phyisical state,but from now on i will not let anything get in my way of sucseeding,as deep down i dont want to have wls as i am scared i will die during surgery !!
SO TODAY IS THE LAST DAY 1 FOR ME !!!!
I know this is going to be a hard and long emotional journey and i actually feel that i am in the right place emotionally to deal and cope with life without turning to food to console me.
December 31st 06 is going 2 be a turning point in my life where i am going to look back over the last 6 months and i am going to be proud of myself no matter what and look forward to 2007 being a healthy and productive year for me and my beautiful son.
Well girs n boys sorry this was a drawn out post(diary page) but up 2 nows i have been very good at keeping my emotions all bottled up, which does me no good.
Got 2 go and have my tetra.All i do know at the moment is that i am willing to give CD 110% for the first time and i actually feel that i am going to sucseed, i know there might be times when i fall down but as long as i get right back on immediately then i know i am giving it my all !!!
THANKS FOR OPENING UP THIS SITE !!
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