Morning Roch,
Some very good advice here...
I think so many of us at one time or another felt just like you and then something clicked!
If we could bottle what it is that makes it come together, we would make a fortune selling it.
Sometimes trying too hard can leave no room to think...
When I was struggling for years to stop smoking it seemed at the time like a never ending circle of stopping for a day here or a week there and sometimes even a month at a time...
One day when I was at my lowest, my husband said to count up all the days I did manage to stay away from smoking...it worked out something like four months in every year.
I said to him now what the feck does that prove, only that no matter how I try I don't seem able to keep away and when I would go back smoking I would smoke twice as much.
With words of wisdom he said well, they were the days you did have 'it'...and you had three to four months in a year and over the last couple of years they all add up to a lot of time abstaining and giving your body a rest.
Some people never even get that far he said...you have.
He told me to keep on trying and one day I would get it and to never give up that he was behind me all the way...
I went back smoking again and again and eventually that one day did come eight and half years ago...
That something did click in and 'it' has stayed as regards the smoking...
Then one day I was crying cos' I was so fat I could not fit into my clothes and everything I put on did not hide the fact that I was huge and I looked like the Micheline Man, but at least he had some shape!
Husband said, well you did it with smoking and you will do it with the weight and God love him he thought he was making me feel better, but he wasn't...I said right back to him...with smoking I could live without and never touch it again and that was the end of that, but with food it is another story.
He said, well just try and use the same thinking that each day I managed the diet that was a day not over eating...I did, even joined WW and followed it to the letter and the weight came off so slowly it was painful and on the first holiday I broke and came home to face the lot back on again.
I can't describe the feeling of failure that I felt...Instead of doing something about it, I caved in and thought I might as well be hung for a sheep instead of a lamb and I used this as an excuse to go on a festival of food...
The result was
I could put on weight at nearly three times I could lose it and I just thought if I were a pig, I would be a prize one as my genetic off spring would feed the world.
The shock of standing on the scales and nearly weighing 18 stone for the size of me at 5' 4" sent me into depression and nearly starving myself to lose ten pounds...I felt lost.
My weight over whelmed me and I was lost and by the Grace of God my friend had Lipotrim sitting on her kitchen table, she was thinking of doing the diet. I had remembered that I had done CD nearly twenty years ago and had been very successful on it, but had not seen it around in years.
It sat on my friends kitchen for about a week...I told her it only works if you drink it and follow the plan...
My friend left her supply of Lipotrim back as she could not even get past the first packet as it made her gag.
The following week I bought Women's Own and there was a story about a girl who had done Lighter Light who had lost nine stone and the transformation in the her was awesome and she did it in six months!
She inspired me so much I decided to give Lipotrim a go as I knew it was similar.
The first week I lost ten pounds and the rest is history...I lost five stone and since the new year I lost another stone and half which came off very slow and then out of frustration I let the chatterbox get the better of me and I broke my diet.
Since April I have regained a stone and half and I have played football with one stone on and off...
But my husband keeps reminding me to keep going that I have not regained the five stone and like stopping smoking I will get to goal one day.
I have my good days and bad days and since I started using the replacement meals with food it seems to be going well for me and I have accepted the slow weight loss as now I feel anything is Better than gaining...
There are days when I would love to wake up slim and I can beat myself up...always a warning sign as this is what I would of used as an excuse to go for the chocolate.
For me watching and being aware what I eat has to be a way of life for me as I know what will happen and there is no escape other than being vigilant with my diet.
My auntie is a vivid reminder what lies in store for me if I don't work at getting this excess weight off and with her encouragement and everyone else's around me I feel I will eventually make it to slim ville.
Your not alone in your struggle and with support and being gentle with yourself you will get there.
Love Mini xxx
