EmVeg
Do a little dance!
Okay, as some of you know at the ripe age of nineteen I have the hips closer to a 70 year old. This is due to a lovely case of hip dysplasia that was only completely diagnosed this year.
For the past couple of years I've had a dull ache in my hips most of the time - it hurts but its been bareable. Over the past few weeks its been getting more and more painful for longer periods of the time.
Today - oh my lord, I am truly in agony. I just woke up and every movement my hips kind of popped out of joint. I can hardly walk, it hurts to sit, to stand, to lay. My OH had to help me dress after I had a rather uncomfortable bath. Plus my feet and bottom of my legs keep feeling numb every time they popped out.
I know I'm not going to lapse..but my head is yelling that food will make me feel better. I know it won't - and I'm going to - but its made an already crappy day a harder one.
I'm just fed up of being in pain - and fed up that the hospital wouldn't let me have the op because of the weight (a good reason that I started LL in the first place.
I've hardly slept a full night the past few weeks and I'm just fed up with pain.
And...I apologise because I know people, and even some on this board I would guess, are in far more pain than I am... but right now I just can't think about anything over than frustration.
Pity party over... I guess I'm just annoyed that my thoughts turned to food...I'm just thankful for LL CBT meant I am not acting on them! So I guess something good is coming out of it.
For the past couple of years I've had a dull ache in my hips most of the time - it hurts but its been bareable. Over the past few weeks its been getting more and more painful for longer periods of the time.
Today - oh my lord, I am truly in agony. I just woke up and every movement my hips kind of popped out of joint. I can hardly walk, it hurts to sit, to stand, to lay. My OH had to help me dress after I had a rather uncomfortable bath. Plus my feet and bottom of my legs keep feeling numb every time they popped out.
I know I'm not going to lapse..but my head is yelling that food will make me feel better. I know it won't - and I'm going to - but its made an already crappy day a harder one.
I'm just fed up of being in pain - and fed up that the hospital wouldn't let me have the op because of the weight (a good reason that I started LL in the first place.
I've hardly slept a full night the past few weeks and I'm just fed up with pain.
And...I apologise because I know people, and even some on this board I would guess, are in far more pain than I am... but right now I just can't think about anything over than frustration.
Pity party over... I guess I'm just annoyed that my thoughts turned to food...I'm just thankful for LL CBT meant I am not acting on them! So I guess something good is coming out of it.