MrsPoogatch
Full Member
Eurgh, well and truley went off the rails and have piled on the weight again now, :cry:
I'm really struggling mentally with food at the moment I dont really know why but I just cannot deal with it all.
I really want to get back onto Exante but I feel so out of control in everything else in my life right now that I don't feel I have the strength to fight myself with food.
Although I know I can do the diet I just cant keep focused enough to get 100% through Day1 or something throws me off in the evening such as Poog wanting to eat or something.
My life is in such a mess and I know that taking control of my eating would really help me get back into control with the rest but I just feel like i'm at the bottom of a pit that I can't climb out of.
I even said to my OH that i'd thought about ending it all but i'm too worried about him and my uncles hurting themselves trying to carry my coffin! :break_diet:
I am on anti-d's at the moment but they dont really help.
I just need a good ole' boot up the backside I think.
*sigh*
I'm really struggling mentally with food at the moment I dont really know why but I just cannot deal with it all.
I really want to get back onto Exante but I feel so out of control in everything else in my life right now that I don't feel I have the strength to fight myself with food.
Although I know I can do the diet I just cant keep focused enough to get 100% through Day1 or something throws me off in the evening such as Poog wanting to eat or something.
My life is in such a mess and I know that taking control of my eating would really help me get back into control with the rest but I just feel like i'm at the bottom of a pit that I can't climb out of.
I even said to my OH that i'd thought about ending it all but i'm too worried about him and my uncles hurting themselves trying to carry my coffin! :break_diet:
I am on anti-d's at the moment but they dont really help.
I just need a good ole' boot up the backside I think.
*sigh*