help - i thought i was better and i'm not!

[Libbie]

Hi Barb
You and your family have been through eo much now wonder your head is all over the place.
Hope things start to get better for you soon.
Thinking of you all
{{{HUGS}}}

 

[Biggirlsam]

Hi barb just a quick one to let you know i'm thinking of you and hope you are feeling a little better.

 

[Barb]

Hi Mrs T, Libbie, Sam and Sharon. I am kind of OK, yesterday was a bad day and I felt really depressed. Today I have had a good cry and I actually feel a bit better. I am so not myself though, I don't know what to do. I hate this feeling of being under a big black cloud and i don't understand why some of the time I am fine and some of the time I am not.

Thank you all for caring about me, I really do appreciate it.

lots of love

 

[Biggirlsam]

Barb I am pleased you are doing ok but -i'm pushing it here but I really feel that you will benefit from some councelling. I know Chris was the immediate victim but you are suffering too. Just a few sesions with someone who can listen to whats upsetting you and someone you can associate with closure, Please think about it and whatever you decide you can always come and scream on here

 

[Barb]

Thanks Sam, I think you are right. I don't think I am keeping the lid on this and I do need help. That's not an easy thing for me to admit as I have always been the one frineds and family come to for help - and that's the way I like it. But, I accept i am out of my depth. I need help, I can't go on like this. The diet is out the window completely, I have only put on 2lbs in four weeks but even so that is not good. I am swimming still but it's no longer a pleasure -it feels like one more punishment to endure. So, I think I will see my Gp and get some advice. Thank you for pushing me, it was exactly what I needed. Lots of love

 

[Mini]

Hi Barb,

I think your right to seek some counselling for yourself as you have been through the mill.

When you give birth to a child, you give birth to your heart and you watch your heart walk, live and breathe outside of your body.

When your child hurts you hurt.

Love Mini xxx

 

[olijames]

Mini such poignant words and hit the nail on the head about the walking heart!

Barb, youre defo doing right thing seeking help and advice. Even a woman of steel couldnt endure what youre going through without expecting to need to talk to someone!x

thinking of you!

 

[Isobel1965]

Bless ya, Barb - I'm thinking of you too!
xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

 

[canireallydothis!!]

Hi Barb, Minis words shocked me a little, not badly but I have never ever been able to put my feelings for my daughter into words and to see it there like that was a bit scary.

I hope you get help, Its so hard trying to keep everyone together being the strong 1 all the time x