Hiya
Refeed can be daunting, so do get onto the refeed part of the forum for some good help and advice...it is always good to get comments on your menu too; every little helps in the long run.
I know where you are coming from...I did refeed for 2 weeks leading up to my 3 week holiday. I was devastated as I didnt want to refeed as I just wished my holiday was later and I would have been at goal.
My first week when I put on I was totally devastated...look at my diary in the refeed...but it made me realise that I didnt want to pile the weight back on, so in some ways it made me determined to stick 100% to the refeed.
Your fears are real and to be honest, they will probably help you too. I didnt put much on over the holiday because I tried to watch what I was eating...I am so happy with the weight loss and I want to learn to love food again but in a healthy way.
I came back on LT on Monday...I just didnt know what to do to be honest and then I had a blip on Saturday last week and it made my mind up that I needed to go back on LT until my goal weight. But, even up to the point of getting to the pharmacy I was still unsure whether to do LT 100% or 2 shakes/meal...even today, 5 days in I am still unsure and dont know what I will do on Monday.
Not because I want to give up, but I want to learn to eat in a good way and I feel I am prolonging that part of my plan...so, all will be revealed on Monday. I didnt find it hard coming back to LT, in fact only today have I felt a little strange, but every other day as been fine and no problems at all.
I think a lot is in the attitude.
No reason why you should pile the weight back on.....do it sensibly, and it will be slower, but that is ok...you are doing lots of exercise so this will help enormously....
Hope you make your decision.
Have a great holiday too...try and get into the spirit of it! It can be a little test for you..I kept setting myself tests to prove LT wasnt a fluke!!
Take care