Thank you all. I have done nothing but cry for the last two days. I really thought he was going to get better but he's just getting more frail. I have to keep lifting him outside for him to do the toilet and he's just utterly miserable.
I know this sounds silly but I don't know if I am strong enough to lose him. :cry:
I know this is such a hard decision but at this time you cant be selfish. If he has no quality of life - its jst not fair. Can i ask you to read The Last Battle & Rainbow Bridge. 1 is a poem, the other a story and while these will make you cry some more it might help a little. I could copy & paste them - give me 2 mins
This was in the wee rest room in the Pet Crematorium that we took Shari to - jeez crying as I re-read his, its stilll raw. I hope this helps a little.
The Last Battle
If it should be that I grow frail and weak
And pain should keep me from my sleep,
Then will you do what must be done,
For this -- the last battle -- can't be won.
You will be sad I understand,
But don't let grief then stay your hand,
For on this day, more than the rest,
Your love and friendship must stand the test.
We have had so many happy years,
You wouldn't want me to suffer so.
When the time comes, please, let me go.
Take me to where to my needs they'll tend,
Only, stay with me till the end
And hold me firm and speak to me
Until my eyes no longer see.
I know in time you will agree
It is a kindness you do to me.
Although my tail its last has waved,
From pain and suffering I have been saved.
Don't grieve that it must be you
Who has to decide this thing to do;
We've been so close -- we two -- these years,
Don't let your heart hold any tears.