Hello all! I'm Nicki and I have previously been both mega successful AND completely unsuccessful at CWP. I think I owed my success to my diary and the massive support I found on here so hoping this is final time lucky. Background: in september 2012 I was feeling so fat and frumpy. I was about to turn 30 and really unhappy with my job and my appearance. I decided to book myself a big 30th birthday party and sent the invites out. And that was it. I had 11 weeks to shed a load of weight or forever remember how **** I felt at my big party. So I did it. I lost over 3 stone. I did a few SS+ days but the majority was 100% and I was so motivated. When the weight started coming off I felt amazing. The compliments were coming and I was being described as 'Sexy' and 'stunning'. Hell I even inspired other people to do the diet! Whilst my 30th was great motivation for losing weight in a way it became my source of failure. Because after the event I didn't follow the steps properly and a year later had gained all my weight back. I tried to restart a few times but have failed everytime. Why is this time different? I hope it is. I have changed jobs and work in a successful law firm in a job I love. I feel secure in my life. But not with my weight. My beautiful size 12 clothes have sat in my wardrobe for months whilst I am desperately (unsuccessfully) trying to avoid moving into size 18 clothes. So here I am. Day 1 nearly over. Starting weight 14 stone. Three shakes down. Thank you for reading......I really can't do it without support!