Hi everyone
hope you are all well & had a good day.
I had the day off today to go shopping but i went to the dr's this morning and I've got laryngitis :sigh: I've felt rough for over a week and to make matters worse i got on the scales this morning and have gained again :cry:. I can't seem to get my head back into it since i got back from Mexico and to make it worse I go away in 3 weeks to New York with 3 girlfriends. I'm not even looking forward to it because I've put on so much weight :cry:. One of the girls I'm going with has lost over 2 stone with LL and I really am pleased for her but every time i look at her it reminds me what I can't do and then i feel bad again. I can't do 790 or 1000 because I can't handle any food in my diet, it has to be all or nothing for me: all being eating everything in sight like a possessed lunatic :cry: I spoke to the doctor about binge eating disorder and she said she can refer me for therapy but i said I'd think about it I just don't know what to do about anything, I'm such an organised perfectionist in all areas of my life (my friends call me Monica, its that's bad!) apart from where food and weight is concerned??
Thanks for reading guys, sometimes its just nice to talk about it without people looking at you like your a freak!!
Maz x
hope you are all well & had a good day.
I had the day off today to go shopping but i went to the dr's this morning and I've got laryngitis :sigh: I've felt rough for over a week and to make matters worse i got on the scales this morning and have gained again :cry:. I can't seem to get my head back into it since i got back from Mexico and to make it worse I go away in 3 weeks to New York with 3 girlfriends. I'm not even looking forward to it because I've put on so much weight :cry:. One of the girls I'm going with has lost over 2 stone with LL and I really am pleased for her but every time i look at her it reminds me what I can't do and then i feel bad again. I can't do 790 or 1000 because I can't handle any food in my diet, it has to be all or nothing for me: all being eating everything in sight like a possessed lunatic :cry: I spoke to the doctor about binge eating disorder and she said she can refer me for therapy but i said I'd think about it I just don't know what to do about anything, I'm such an organised perfectionist in all areas of my life (my friends call me Monica, its that's bad!) apart from where food and weight is concerned??
Thanks for reading guys, sometimes its just nice to talk about it without people looking at you like your a freak!!
Maz x