Maz.... oh my darling maz.... we've been in this together almost from the start... do you remember our first conversation where I was on my high horse as hadn't cheated in a month! God I wish I could get back to that! How did you do it??? You are looking stunning though mate and will feel great wandering round the big apple looking foxy!
xx[/quote]
ahh bless ya, you are a sweetie It suddenly dawned on me i was almost back to where i started and i was actually dreading going to NewYork I really didn't want to go because i felt so awful about how i looked so i thought i'd better get on with as i had no choice about NY! Its booked and paid for and i go on Monday I'm not even near where i was for my brothers wedding in august (still a stone away ) but it could be much worse!
Now you young lady! You have lost so much so you really need to be much less harse with yourself! When the time is right it will 'click' again and until then stop beating yourself up, it doesn't help and if anything it made it worse for me! I was beginning to HATE me and that's awful! We are human and we have good days and bad days so lets celebrate the good days and forget the bad!
Ok, lecture over, you know where i am x
xx[/quote]
ahh bless ya, you are a sweetie It suddenly dawned on me i was almost back to where i started and i was actually dreading going to NewYork I really didn't want to go because i felt so awful about how i looked so i thought i'd better get on with as i had no choice about NY! Its booked and paid for and i go on Monday I'm not even near where i was for my brothers wedding in august (still a stone away ) but it could be much worse!
Now you young lady! You have lost so much so you really need to be much less harse with yourself! When the time is right it will 'click' again and until then stop beating yourself up, it doesn't help and if anything it made it worse for me! I was beginning to HATE me and that's awful! We are human and we have good days and bad days so lets celebrate the good days and forget the bad!
Ok, lecture over, you know where i am x