This may be a long rant!!
I went to my first meeting 5 weeks ago but never went back, main reason was that i was workng late and that we had stuff planned. But i still weighed myself and lost 3.5lb.
As the weeks have gone on i have lost another 1.5lb so i was pleased. But then now i have put 4lb back on and i have noone to blame but myself.
i have been eating rubbish and feeling generally crappy about myself and i just dont know how to break his cycle. My darlin partner is supportive but wants this to be my journey/choices so that i dont blame him.
i hate myself for not being able to control myself. Every sunday i vow to start again and then. Y wednesday i am reaching for the chocolate.
We go on holiday in October and I wanted this holiday to be different.
I just dont know what to do
I went to my first meeting 5 weeks ago but never went back, main reason was that i was workng late and that we had stuff planned. But i still weighed myself and lost 3.5lb.
As the weeks have gone on i have lost another 1.5lb so i was pleased. But then now i have put 4lb back on and i have noone to blame but myself.
i have been eating rubbish and feeling generally crappy about myself and i just dont know how to break his cycle. My darlin partner is supportive but wants this to be my journey/choices so that i dont blame him.
i hate myself for not being able to control myself. Every sunday i vow to start again and then. Y wednesday i am reaching for the chocolate.
We go on holiday in October and I wanted this holiday to be different.
I just dont know what to do