chelsearose
New Member
Ok, basically i'm a binge eater, compulsive eater & food obsessed.
I crave food if i see it on a picture/tv/think about it and don't know when to stop.
I also do little exercise as i'm a recovering agraphobic since bein (badly) assaulted just under 3 years ago at school. At the time I weighed 8 stone.
I'm 16 yrs old and i weigh just under 11 stone. I'm 5 foot 3. This time 2yrs ago, I weighed almost 14 and a half stone. My ankles had seized up and my back ached. I simply cut down on food but still had treats etc then started walking my dog when i felt able to and also filling up on salads and not eating late at night (1 of my biggest downfalls!)
At the biggining of this year I was 9 stone and 13 pounds, but due to my depression, agraphobia and binge eating getting bad again due to a knock in my confidence, i've gained a stone.
Im desperate to get back to that weight and my ultimate goal is 9 stone or less.
I have no idea what to do.. it feels like i've bein trapped for the past 6 months in a binge cycle - i can't stop.
I'm useless at calorie counting and find it triggers me to binge if i get the calorie amount too high, i've kept a food diary for a year and a half which doesn't seem to bother me, i thought it'd stop me craving/binging but it doesn't.
I'm in counselling (have bein for a year) but binge everytime i get home from it from the stress of going out as the boys who assaulted me regulary are around the estate and call me fat etc and harrass me. i also self harm and have recently started thinking about suicide.
I've never thrown food up however have started trying to. I also am a member of several pro anorexia forums, but i'm too weak to starve myself.
It's torture. I'm trapped & so desperate to get out. I can't go anywhere like this. I feel disgusting.
I don't know what to do. I'm considering asking the doctor for anti depressants or weightloss pills.
Also i've recently bein sabatoging myself for no reason. EG: today. ate healthy til 10pm then binged on 2 cheese and salad wraps when i wasn't hungry, i just had a huge urge to.
Any advice please? I'm going literally insane. My mind is numb constantly. I blush, sweat, shake in public, (which is not often as i only go out once a week at the most) i can't cope bein this big. I feel like people are disgusted just from looking at me. I want to be normal! thankyou so much.
Chels x
I crave food if i see it on a picture/tv/think about it and don't know when to stop.
I also do little exercise as i'm a recovering agraphobic since bein (badly) assaulted just under 3 years ago at school. At the time I weighed 8 stone.
I'm 16 yrs old and i weigh just under 11 stone. I'm 5 foot 3. This time 2yrs ago, I weighed almost 14 and a half stone. My ankles had seized up and my back ached. I simply cut down on food but still had treats etc then started walking my dog when i felt able to and also filling up on salads and not eating late at night (1 of my biggest downfalls!)
At the biggining of this year I was 9 stone and 13 pounds, but due to my depression, agraphobia and binge eating getting bad again due to a knock in my confidence, i've gained a stone.
Im desperate to get back to that weight and my ultimate goal is 9 stone or less.
I have no idea what to do.. it feels like i've bein trapped for the past 6 months in a binge cycle - i can't stop.
I'm useless at calorie counting and find it triggers me to binge if i get the calorie amount too high, i've kept a food diary for a year and a half which doesn't seem to bother me, i thought it'd stop me craving/binging but it doesn't.
I'm in counselling (have bein for a year) but binge everytime i get home from it from the stress of going out as the boys who assaulted me regulary are around the estate and call me fat etc and harrass me. i also self harm and have recently started thinking about suicide.
I've never thrown food up however have started trying to. I also am a member of several pro anorexia forums, but i'm too weak to starve myself.
It's torture. I'm trapped & so desperate to get out. I can't go anywhere like this. I feel disgusting.
I don't know what to do. I'm considering asking the doctor for anti depressants or weightloss pills.
Also i've recently bein sabatoging myself for no reason. EG: today. ate healthy til 10pm then binged on 2 cheese and salad wraps when i wasn't hungry, i just had a huge urge to.
Any advice please? I'm going literally insane. My mind is numb constantly. I blush, sweat, shake in public, (which is not often as i only go out once a week at the most) i can't cope bein this big. I feel like people are disgusted just from looking at me. I want to be normal! thankyou so much.
Chels x