Want2bethin
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:cry: I am miserable. I feel like someone should come and slap me so hard and dig me a grave. (no joke.) I am gutted, upset, a complete failure and weak!
I re-started doing CD today, after faffing about for 2 weeks, because i started 2 weeks ago, gave up after day one. Started seeing a new CDC yesterday, yet STILL can't do it.
I just want to curl up and die.. I can't believe i can't even do ONE day.
I think i have a huge confidence problem and i think its affecting me sticking to it. - I think this problem is due to how i feel about losing. . When i have it clear in my mind that losing weight it number 1 priority, it truly is and i can see myself being so so happy once all the weight has come off, but throughout my pregnancy with my son, i gained a bit of weight, and it caused stretchmarks all throughout my body, not just on my stomach. I have gotten them on my arms, legs, back, stomach, butt, breasts, under my arms & then as soon as i start dieting, thats it.. them thoughts come back and i just start thinking 'well either way, i am going to be ugly, so whats the point' .. but i know deep down there is a point. I just can't cope looking like that anymore, i feel like CRAP. My partner is in the british army, so that is so embarrassing for me to look like this, when hes one of the fittest in the country.
What on earth will i ever do?
I re-started doing CD today, after faffing about for 2 weeks, because i started 2 weeks ago, gave up after day one. Started seeing a new CDC yesterday, yet STILL can't do it.
I just want to curl up and die.. I can't believe i can't even do ONE day.
I think i have a huge confidence problem and i think its affecting me sticking to it. - I think this problem is due to how i feel about losing. . When i have it clear in my mind that losing weight it number 1 priority, it truly is and i can see myself being so so happy once all the weight has come off, but throughout my pregnancy with my son, i gained a bit of weight, and it caused stretchmarks all throughout my body, not just on my stomach. I have gotten them on my arms, legs, back, stomach, butt, breasts, under my arms & then as soon as i start dieting, thats it.. them thoughts come back and i just start thinking 'well either way, i am going to be ugly, so whats the point' .. but i know deep down there is a point. I just can't cope looking like that anymore, i feel like CRAP. My partner is in the british army, so that is so embarrassing for me to look like this, when hes one of the fittest in the country.
What on earth will i ever do?