roundrachel
Silver Member
Just had to vent a bit...
I was trying on old clothes from when I was 18 last night and most of them fit- hooray!
My Mum came along and asked what size they were and I told her they were a 10. She then said 'I forbid you to go to a size 8'. I couldn't quite believe it! How dare she interfere with my weight loss journey. And how dare she forbid me to do anything. I'm 31 years old!!
I can understand where she's coming from in some senses. I suffered from bulimia for 10 years. Part of my recovery has been piling on weight and establishing a new relationship with food which I did. After 6 years of being completely fine I came onto LL. And now Mum obviously thinks I'm going to develop an eating disorder again.
It's so frustrating to have this hanging over my head. I don't want every meal time to be an issue. I don't want someone constantly making a judgement on what is or isn't on my plate. That's one of the reasons I got ill in the first place.
Just so frustrating that I don't feel like my eating plan can ever be my own. There's always going to be someone looking over my shoulder.
And yes, I do want to get down to a size 8 ideally. I'd still be a healthy BMI. But if I don't lose any more inches then fine. I'm happy at a size 10. It's much better than the size 28 I was!
Sorry, just had to have a moan. I'm not being unreasonable am I?
I was trying on old clothes from when I was 18 last night and most of them fit- hooray!
My Mum came along and asked what size they were and I told her they were a 10. She then said 'I forbid you to go to a size 8'. I couldn't quite believe it! How dare she interfere with my weight loss journey. And how dare she forbid me to do anything. I'm 31 years old!!
I can understand where she's coming from in some senses. I suffered from bulimia for 10 years. Part of my recovery has been piling on weight and establishing a new relationship with food which I did. After 6 years of being completely fine I came onto LL. And now Mum obviously thinks I'm going to develop an eating disorder again.
It's so frustrating to have this hanging over my head. I don't want every meal time to be an issue. I don't want someone constantly making a judgement on what is or isn't on my plate. That's one of the reasons I got ill in the first place.
Just so frustrating that I don't feel like my eating plan can ever be my own. There's always going to be someone looking over my shoulder.
And yes, I do want to get down to a size 8 ideally. I'd still be a healthy BMI. But if I don't lose any more inches then fine. I'm happy at a size 10. It's much better than the size 28 I was!
Sorry, just had to have a moan. I'm not being unreasonable am I?