Tinkerbell1987
i love minimins me :)
after my birthday i still ate the following day, but just a small amount, so i then ss'd all thursday and friday (even after cooking a meal then givin it away) my friends all rang and they were in town and i was quite depressed being on my own so i decided to go out n get ready
asked at the bar for a diet coke but was given vodka and coke, i thought 1 would be ok so didnt really think about it, next time my friend got me a drink in a different bar and again it was vodka and certainly not a single, by this time they were all drunk n i was feeling miserable, so i drank it, in the next bar they serve food, so thought i best have some food since i was havin alcohol on an empty stomach i ended up with pizza and onion rings (between 4 of us) so then i got upset i had eaten n ended up getting very drunk
yesterday had to be up for work early, n ended up having crisps and chocolate at work then a few drinks after work followed by a burger king
i have woke up all through the night crying that i can get myself into this mess, i know cd is hard but everyday is like a nightmare for me and certainly no1 is trying to make it any easier for me
i have woke up this morning in floods of tears, not sure if its all to do with the diet but i think it is, i usually go to my mams on a sunday but i have rang and told her am ill, just cos when i get there they will ask bout my diet etc, and accordin to my scales i have gained 2lb since i last saw my cdc :cry:which isnt huge amounts but i had lost 7lb before my birthday so i have put on 9lb :cry:
i have suffered with severe depression in the past so i cannot say only my diet is makin me feel this bad today but i feel like jus giving up on everything :cry:
xxx
asked at the bar for a diet coke but was given vodka and coke, i thought 1 would be ok so didnt really think about it, next time my friend got me a drink in a different bar and again it was vodka and certainly not a single, by this time they were all drunk n i was feeling miserable, so i drank it, in the next bar they serve food, so thought i best have some food since i was havin alcohol on an empty stomach i ended up with pizza and onion rings (between 4 of us) so then i got upset i had eaten n ended up getting very drunk
yesterday had to be up for work early, n ended up having crisps and chocolate at work then a few drinks after work followed by a burger king
i have woke up all through the night crying that i can get myself into this mess, i know cd is hard but everyday is like a nightmare for me and certainly no1 is trying to make it any easier for me
i have woke up this morning in floods of tears, not sure if its all to do with the diet but i think it is, i usually go to my mams on a sunday but i have rang and told her am ill, just cos when i get there they will ask bout my diet etc, and accordin to my scales i have gained 2lb since i last saw my cdc :cry:which isnt huge amounts but i had lost 7lb before my birthday so i have put on 9lb :cry:
i have suffered with severe depression in the past so i cannot say only my diet is makin me feel this bad today but i feel like jus giving up on everything :cry:
xxx