smoorecats
Full Member
Hi Everyone,
Well yesterday myself and 3 friends went to Alton Towers for the day, no kids, (only the big ones!) no hubbies/OH's and loads of scary rides, my idea of fun!
Anyway we get into the park and the first ride we queued for was Spinball whizzer, well I get into my seat next to this young lad of about16 (we queued in the singles queue, hence why me and mates weren't sitting together!) anyway this lovely young lad asks me if I'm having a good time, had I been on this before, bless him, when the young assistant comes round closing the safety bars,well they get to me and close it, so I'm thinking OK that wasn't so bad, then she says hold on a minute, I'll just get my colleague so then I have 2 of them and they say the safety bar has to click 4 times and mines only clicked 3, so with that I have both assistants trying to force this bar to click again, (in full view of the queue) would it hell as like so they say sorry but you can't ride as it's not safe, so I have to get off in front of everyone and stand at the side while my friends who are in other cards are asking whats wrong, well I really don't know how on earth I stopped myself from crying, you know when you try not to blink because you know that when you do that 1st tear will fall and that will be it, I have never in my life felt as S*** as I did then, nearly but not THAT humiliated, anyway they give me a priority pass for oblivion, so off we go and luckilt that was OK, but all the rest of the rides I was looking at the harness/safety arrangement the whole time in the queue trying to weigh up wether or not it would close!
Well a good few rides later we get to AIR jump in the seat and the assistant comes along tries to close the safety bar again not a hope in hell of it closing so off I get again with another priority pass and not an ounce of self worth left, at that point I came to the conclusion that my weight had never screwed me up as much as it did then and all I wanted to do was die and I mean die.
Again while my friends are on AIR I try with all my might to pull myself together (had a couple of tears, god knows how I didn't lose complete control and flood the place I will never know, so again off we go to Ripsaw with the priority pass in hand I ask the young assistant if the bar is gonna close on me, at which point he looks me up and down and says well we can certainly give it a try at which point he ushers me and my friend (other 2 didn't fancy it) over to the ride to try, with that I say hold on a minute you have got no chance of you trying to close that on me while everyone is watching (the ride was empty and the next lot were waiting to get on and he wanted to try in front off them all looking as the queue looks directly at it!) so he says OK we'll let everyone on them all try together!
Thankfully it did close but my god my weight has never made me feel THAT bad in my life, all I have done today is cry, just my kids asking if I had a nice day I broke down and that is how I feel and have felt all day, I must have cried 20 times, as of tomorrow I WILL be on CD (should've today as I have hardly eaten, a flashback from yesterday puts pay to that!, but I have drunk loads of pepsi max) as with the help of my humiliation flashbacks I'm sure I can stick to it!
Sorry it has been a long and boring post but I thought it may make me feel better writing it down?
Sally x
Well yesterday myself and 3 friends went to Alton Towers for the day, no kids, (only the big ones!) no hubbies/OH's and loads of scary rides, my idea of fun!
Anyway we get into the park and the first ride we queued for was Spinball whizzer, well I get into my seat next to this young lad of about16 (we queued in the singles queue, hence why me and mates weren't sitting together!) anyway this lovely young lad asks me if I'm having a good time, had I been on this before, bless him, when the young assistant comes round closing the safety bars,well they get to me and close it, so I'm thinking OK that wasn't so bad, then she says hold on a minute, I'll just get my colleague so then I have 2 of them and they say the safety bar has to click 4 times and mines only clicked 3, so with that I have both assistants trying to force this bar to click again, (in full view of the queue) would it hell as like so they say sorry but you can't ride as it's not safe, so I have to get off in front of everyone and stand at the side while my friends who are in other cards are asking whats wrong, well I really don't know how on earth I stopped myself from crying, you know when you try not to blink because you know that when you do that 1st tear will fall and that will be it, I have never in my life felt as S*** as I did then, nearly but not THAT humiliated, anyway they give me a priority pass for oblivion, so off we go and luckilt that was OK, but all the rest of the rides I was looking at the harness/safety arrangement the whole time in the queue trying to weigh up wether or not it would close!
Well a good few rides later we get to AIR jump in the seat and the assistant comes along tries to close the safety bar again not a hope in hell of it closing so off I get again with another priority pass and not an ounce of self worth left, at that point I came to the conclusion that my weight had never screwed me up as much as it did then and all I wanted to do was die and I mean die.
Again while my friends are on AIR I try with all my might to pull myself together (had a couple of tears, god knows how I didn't lose complete control and flood the place I will never know, so again off we go to Ripsaw with the priority pass in hand I ask the young assistant if the bar is gonna close on me, at which point he looks me up and down and says well we can certainly give it a try at which point he ushers me and my friend (other 2 didn't fancy it) over to the ride to try, with that I say hold on a minute you have got no chance of you trying to close that on me while everyone is watching (the ride was empty and the next lot were waiting to get on and he wanted to try in front off them all looking as the queue looks directly at it!) so he says OK we'll let everyone on them all try together!
Thankfully it did close but my god my weight has never made me feel THAT bad in my life, all I have done today is cry, just my kids asking if I had a nice day I broke down and that is how I feel and have felt all day, I must have cried 20 times, as of tomorrow I WILL be on CD (should've today as I have hardly eaten, a flashback from yesterday puts pay to that!, but I have drunk loads of pepsi max) as with the help of my humiliation flashbacks I'm sure I can stick to it!
Sorry it has been a long and boring post but I thought it may make me feel better writing it down?
Sally x
