Morning
Ashamed to say it but it is day 1 for me again today.
I done really well right up to Saturday when I had a call to say my Nan had suffered a stroke. She is 93 and we are all very close to her, it was a big shock as she has always seemed so tough. I don’t ever think of her being that age. Then seeing my Dad so upset and worried, made me upset and yep you guessed it, I rewarded myself with rubbish food. I won’t go into it on here but I well and truly stuffed up.
I weighed myself Saturday morning (Day 6) and I had lost 11lbs but when I weighed myself this morning I have put 8lbs back on.
So here I go again, back onto the shakes. I am not visiting her tonight so it should be easier for me to stick to it(to be honest I am so knackered I just want to sleep).
When am I going to learn that eating doesn’t make everything go away? I hate myself for giving up at the first opportunity but then my brain is playing tricks on me saying its ok, your Nan is really sick, your upset. I am so worried about her that I feel bad for being concerned about being so fat.
My husband tried to convince me not to SS but to have a small meal in the evening after visiting for a few days and then SS, go into it gradually but I just feel like a failure.
HELP
Nina
Ashamed to say it but it is day 1 for me again today.
I done really well right up to Saturday when I had a call to say my Nan had suffered a stroke. She is 93 and we are all very close to her, it was a big shock as she has always seemed so tough. I don’t ever think of her being that age. Then seeing my Dad so upset and worried, made me upset and yep you guessed it, I rewarded myself with rubbish food. I won’t go into it on here but I well and truly stuffed up.
I weighed myself Saturday morning (Day 6) and I had lost 11lbs but when I weighed myself this morning I have put 8lbs back on.
So here I go again, back onto the shakes. I am not visiting her tonight so it should be easier for me to stick to it(to be honest I am so knackered I just want to sleep).
When am I going to learn that eating doesn’t make everything go away? I hate myself for giving up at the first opportunity but then my brain is playing tricks on me saying its ok, your Nan is really sick, your upset. I am so worried about her that I feel bad for being concerned about being so fat.
My husband tried to convince me not to SS but to have a small meal in the evening after visiting for a few days and then SS, go into it gradually but I just feel like a failure.
HELP
Nina