puzzles
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Hello, I'm hoping that posting this will help me to think carefully about what I'm feeling and make links between my emotions and food.
Mother's day is hard for me: I haven't got my mum, she died when I was 17, and I'm not a mum either although I would dearly love to be. But it IS just a day, so why am I finding it so hard? I had some apple and cinnamon porridge this morning at about 10 o clock. I went round to my brother's this morning and asked him to take a picture, I look awful, not weight wise exactly but you know when your hair and skin look wrong somehow.
And I have been 100% all week (my WI is Tuesday.) Now my scales jump between 11'2 to 11'4 but they are 2lbs less than at my CDC (I suspect mine may be correct as they tally with the 'official' ones in Boots but anyway) the point is, I was 11 7 at her house and 11 3/4 + 2 is 11'5/6. I'm wondering why I'm depriving myself just to lose two pounds, I know it's still good but today I feel so hungry, fed up and yes deprived, I am having an absolutely horrid time at work just now and I went for a job interview on Friday which I didn't get and I'm trying to think "long term" and think of beautiful summer dresses, bikinis and looking amazing at weddings but I just wonder what the point is when I feel so miserable just now!
Please talk me out of blowing it all for an easter egg and a cinnamon & raisin bagel ...
Mother's day is hard for me: I haven't got my mum, she died when I was 17, and I'm not a mum either although I would dearly love to be. But it IS just a day, so why am I finding it so hard? I had some apple and cinnamon porridge this morning at about 10 o clock. I went round to my brother's this morning and asked him to take a picture, I look awful, not weight wise exactly but you know when your hair and skin look wrong somehow.
And I have been 100% all week (my WI is Tuesday.) Now my scales jump between 11'2 to 11'4 but they are 2lbs less than at my CDC (I suspect mine may be correct as they tally with the 'official' ones in Boots but anyway) the point is, I was 11 7 at her house and 11 3/4 + 2 is 11'5/6. I'm wondering why I'm depriving myself just to lose two pounds, I know it's still good but today I feel so hungry, fed up and yes deprived, I am having an absolutely horrid time at work just now and I went for a job interview on Friday which I didn't get and I'm trying to think "long term" and think of beautiful summer dresses, bikinis and looking amazing at weddings but I just wonder what the point is when I feel so miserable just now!
Please talk me out of blowing it all for an easter egg and a cinnamon & raisin bagel ...