jabbathehut
This is the last time!!
Don't know if many saw in yesterdays daily thread, but I had a SERIOUS wobble last night. My CDC's order was 'messed up' and she probably wont have my stuff until Monday of next week (we live in Germany, hubby's in forces), so when she told me this I just though, screw it, I'll quit now then.
Well, I won't tell you the number of times I walked to the kitchen about to binge. 2 crying fits, a massively sulky evening, one pack of chewing gum all gone, and my nails bitten to the quick, BUT! I won. I didnt eat a single thing.
The trouble is, I still dont know if I'll be able to continue after today. My CDC is trying to source me some shakes from another client who didnt like them but it doesnt look hopeful.
And this past week has been SO hard, I'm not emotionally strong enough to go through it all again so soon, so have told her if she can't source me anything, I will be stopping. I dont want to be messing my poor body/hormones/emotions around any more than I have to, and I think 4 days of eating, irrespective of how healthily I do it, then going back to SS wont be good for me, especially as I am still hugely concerned about hairloss.
So, we'll see how things go I guess. Plus side being, on my scales this morning I have lost a further 3lbs from my weigh in (also on my scales) on Monday, meaning a total of 15lbs in 9 days. That's gotta be enough to make me smile, despite the uncertainty.
Well, I won't tell you the number of times I walked to the kitchen about to binge. 2 crying fits, a massively sulky evening, one pack of chewing gum all gone, and my nails bitten to the quick, BUT! I won. I didnt eat a single thing.
The trouble is, I still dont know if I'll be able to continue after today. My CDC is trying to source me some shakes from another client who didnt like them but it doesnt look hopeful.
And this past week has been SO hard, I'm not emotionally strong enough to go through it all again so soon, so have told her if she can't source me anything, I will be stopping. I dont want to be messing my poor body/hormones/emotions around any more than I have to, and I think 4 days of eating, irrespective of how healthily I do it, then going back to SS wont be good for me, especially as I am still hugely concerned about hairloss.
So, we'll see how things go I guess. Plus side being, on my scales this morning I have lost a further 3lbs from my weigh in (also on my scales) on Monday, meaning a total of 15lbs in 9 days. That's gotta be enough to make me smile, despite the uncertainty.