Hi Everyone,
I have just read through your posts from the last 8 days or so and I can only really say sorry again.
Emotionally I am in the worst place I have been for a long long time, I didn't WI yesterday cos I have pretty much binged every day :-(
I start off with good intentions and then something's sets me off.
Some examples of binging have included...
A Jar of Sunpat Smooth Peanut Butter (57pp)
A Box of Curiously Cinnamon (43pp)
A Jar of Fluff (19pp)
10 slice Dominos Veggie Supreme Pizza (52pp)
Those things are ON TOP of normal meals/snacks :-( So you can probably see why there was no point in WI yesterday!
Today is my first day without a Binge and I hope to get through it without having one?
I'd be far too much of a hypocrite to post on people's threads when I've been doing this plus I'm a walking zombie as I've not slept in days, I have the most awful panic attacks and at night I'm up and down like a yoyo thinking I can hear 'things'.
I go into Hospital on Friday (20th) for the next part of my Gynae Op, I am also seeing my GP on the same day as I think it's time that I ask for some help as I'm trying (and failing!) to cope on my own.
I haven't even been getting my Reductions, I must be feeling under the weather!
I must leave this message with two positive things..
Firstly my little Popsicle who is my rock at the moment has returned to School and into Year 1, here she is in her School Uniform...
She made me one proud Mummy on Friday when she was awarded the Golden Certificate for her Class
Secondly I have caught the Baking Bug again and made the most amazing Banana Muffins which worked out at 5pp...
I think that's all from me, I thank each and everyone for your kind messages, I can't promise when I will be back or when I will WI again but thank you and I'm sorry.
Serena x