toller-girl
constantly confused
I've been putting off posting this for a while, but figure I need to tackle things and maybe writing it down is the first step?
I've had a really bad couple of months. My husband left me just before Christmas and I've started to slip into old habits of comfort eating.
Cooking for one seems pointless, and I'm surviving on marmite sandwiches, the odd piece of fruit and also bingeing on crisps and chocolate.
I know I'm putting weight back on, though not too much yet, and I really need to stop this before I'm back where I started, I just don't know how to. I seem to have lost all respect for myself and feel like it doesn't matter.
I was in the supermarket yesterday about to buy crisps and chocolate and was saying to msyelf 'do I need this, I shouldn't buy this stuff' but I still did. I felt like I couldn't bear not to buy them, because I knew I'd get home, feel depressed and 'need' them.
I don't know how to get through this without resorting to my old habits.
I've eaten all the junk food I've bought, hovered over a packet of laxatives but decided that was a route I didn't want to go down.
Money is tight now that I'm on my own, I can't afford to go back on a meal replacement diet and am just struggling with what's the way forward.
It scared me that I wanted to resist buying that stuff yesterday but I couldn't.
Apparently you can get a free 12 weeks at slimming world if your doctor refers you, I'm probably back in the 'overweight' BMI category (I don't have any scales) so I've been debating asking him for that, so that I've got a bit of support and being weighed regularly.
I've had a really bad couple of months. My husband left me just before Christmas and I've started to slip into old habits of comfort eating.
Cooking for one seems pointless, and I'm surviving on marmite sandwiches, the odd piece of fruit and also bingeing on crisps and chocolate.
I know I'm putting weight back on, though not too much yet, and I really need to stop this before I'm back where I started, I just don't know how to. I seem to have lost all respect for myself and feel like it doesn't matter.
I was in the supermarket yesterday about to buy crisps and chocolate and was saying to msyelf 'do I need this, I shouldn't buy this stuff' but I still did. I felt like I couldn't bear not to buy them, because I knew I'd get home, feel depressed and 'need' them.
I don't know how to get through this without resorting to my old habits.
I've eaten all the junk food I've bought, hovered over a packet of laxatives but decided that was a route I didn't want to go down.
Money is tight now that I'm on my own, I can't afford to go back on a meal replacement diet and am just struggling with what's the way forward.
It scared me that I wanted to resist buying that stuff yesterday but I couldn't.
Apparently you can get a free 12 weeks at slimming world if your doctor refers you, I'm probably back in the 'overweight' BMI category (I don't have any scales) so I've been debating asking him for that, so that I've got a bit of support and being weighed regularly.