shell09
Silver Member
Hi guys at my recent wi I reached my goal I had two planned days off and back for one more week as I had planned a scheduled end date. I'm coming off cd 17th dec I'm not going through the propped maintenance as want s complete diet break over the festive period n in the new year want to get back to the gym back excercising at home and then begin to judge what I can n can't eat to work out how to maintain. I was so happy to reCh goal n knew all along I'd do a bit of damage by not going through maintenance but now all I can think about is putting all that weight back on again n it scares me rigid! I've told myself I really wouldn't let that happen but I'm sure that's what every other restarter said! I hope by allowing myself to indulge at Xmas within reason n then getting into some long term healthy eating and exercise in the new year will be enough I really don't want to prove all those people right the ones that said id put it all back on! It's crazy how not eating and cd is like a comfort blanket I dont want to take off yet at the same time I'm desperate yo leave it behind! Don't want to be dramatic but the way my head is going ten to the dozen right now I can see how eating disorders are born! Don't really know what response I'm expecting to this post but I'm driving myself crazy! I've even been looking over the maintenance boards n so many people put it all back I just cannot let that be! Ps sorry for all the typos ...... Silly iPhone lol