cocktailprincess
Still rockin' it
.........and ended in the mother of all binges.
It is such a horrible feeling to be so out of control! I started with kidding myself that it didn't matter, then lying that 'normal' people eat like this and then finally admitting that I was in the middle of a massive brain freeze and despite knowing I would hate myself and it was completely emotional and irrational, I carried on.
My husband said I frightened him as I looked almost like a zombie!
BUT
I decided that rather than trying to do some mad unrealistic damage limitation I should do what went against every instinct- and had my official weigh-in this morning (1 day earlier than normal). The theory is that I have drawn a line, accepted the consequences and can move on
I gained 5lb
I'm not really asking anything here- just wanted to declare this to the world to try and deal with the shame and dissapointment. I feel ill, embarrassed and very sad- but am still here and still battling on
xxxx
It is such a horrible feeling to be so out of control! I started with kidding myself that it didn't matter, then lying that 'normal' people eat like this and then finally admitting that I was in the middle of a massive brain freeze and despite knowing I would hate myself and it was completely emotional and irrational, I carried on.
My husband said I frightened him as I looked almost like a zombie!
BUT
I decided that rather than trying to do some mad unrealistic damage limitation I should do what went against every instinct- and had my official weigh-in this morning (1 day earlier than normal). The theory is that I have drawn a line, accepted the consequences and can move on
I gained 5lb
I'm not really asking anything here- just wanted to declare this to the world to try and deal with the shame and dissapointment. I feel ill, embarrassed and very sad- but am still here and still battling on
xxxx