Champess
Skinny Soon ?!
Hi folks
I've been flagging this past week and starting to feel rotten about myself and life in general.
After a nice long run of strictly SSing I ate. and ate and ate for the last 4 or five days.
My son (who is just 16) decided to leave home and go and live with his dad back in July.
That in itself is no big deal but..........his dad lives in the USA. I didn't really agree with the move and thought he should wait until he was 18 and had finished college here.
But rather than have him hold it against me for all eternity I decided to let him go.
To cut a long story short, his dad did absolutly nothing to help sort out the move and so he doesn't yet have residency and can't start college until that is settled (probably not until the new year) so he is basically dossing around doing nothing every day while his dad and stepmom are at work.
He emailed me the other day (at 3 in the morning for him) asking me to get his doctor here to email his medical records to him for an appointment the next day. He said his dad was asleep in the other room and it would be quicker if I did it over here.
After lots of tooing and froing the doctors agreed to let me pick up hard copies and charged me £10. I went the same night and collected them and emailed my son to tell him and ask him how he wanted me to get them to him.
He promptly went to the coast for the weekend and so I couldn't get any answer. When I got into work first thing after the weekend there was an email sent to work telling me he didn't need them now as he had sorted it out himself!!!!!
He seems to have turned his back on me and didn't even apologise for missing my birthday even though he was reminded about it and it was pointed out to him (by his step dad here) that he had upset me.
He knew how I felt about him going. I brought him up as a single mother from the age of 3 months after his dad left us. His dad took no interest in him for 14 years and then bam he suddenly wants him to go live with him. My son has talked about little else for the last two years. My ex never even had a conversation with me about him going. Just left if for my son to talk to me.
I feel so betrayed. I know I shouldn't as he is only a kid and teenagers will be teenagers but i just feel why the heck should I bother to remember his birthday and email him every day with news and bits of chit chat. I feel like just saying well if you want to live over there good luck to you and leaving it until he contacts me (but I know that is petty).
His dad regularly hit me about and treated me very badly over the 10 years we were together. Now he has even taken my only son away from me!
So far today I have had two tetras and about 3 pints of water. I am trying hard to get back to it but I feel so down!
I've been flagging this past week and starting to feel rotten about myself and life in general.
After a nice long run of strictly SSing I ate. and ate and ate for the last 4 or five days.
My son (who is just 16) decided to leave home and go and live with his dad back in July.
That in itself is no big deal but..........his dad lives in the USA. I didn't really agree with the move and thought he should wait until he was 18 and had finished college here.
But rather than have him hold it against me for all eternity I decided to let him go.
To cut a long story short, his dad did absolutly nothing to help sort out the move and so he doesn't yet have residency and can't start college until that is settled (probably not until the new year) so he is basically dossing around doing nothing every day while his dad and stepmom are at work.
He emailed me the other day (at 3 in the morning for him) asking me to get his doctor here to email his medical records to him for an appointment the next day. He said his dad was asleep in the other room and it would be quicker if I did it over here.
After lots of tooing and froing the doctors agreed to let me pick up hard copies and charged me £10. I went the same night and collected them and emailed my son to tell him and ask him how he wanted me to get them to him.
He promptly went to the coast for the weekend and so I couldn't get any answer. When I got into work first thing after the weekend there was an email sent to work telling me he didn't need them now as he had sorted it out himself!!!!!
He seems to have turned his back on me and didn't even apologise for missing my birthday even though he was reminded about it and it was pointed out to him (by his step dad here) that he had upset me.
He knew how I felt about him going. I brought him up as a single mother from the age of 3 months after his dad left us. His dad took no interest in him for 14 years and then bam he suddenly wants him to go live with him. My son has talked about little else for the last two years. My ex never even had a conversation with me about him going. Just left if for my son to talk to me.
I feel so betrayed. I know I shouldn't as he is only a kid and teenagers will be teenagers but i just feel why the heck should I bother to remember his birthday and email him every day with news and bits of chit chat. I feel like just saying well if you want to live over there good luck to you and leaving it until he contacts me (but I know that is petty).
His dad regularly hit me about and treated me very badly over the 10 years we were together. Now he has even taken my only son away from me!
So far today I have had two tetras and about 3 pints of water. I am trying hard to get back to it but I feel so down!