Hate it but doing it!
I've had enough, i'm sick to death of constantly thinking and craving food. I'm miserable, i'm making my husband miserable i just don't think i can keep with it. I'm only a third of the way through for chuffing nora. Sod the adult/child/parent mentality i just can't put my life on hold for the sake of losing some more weight. I've done well so far, so well i've been feeling guilty at the snide comments at the session that quite frankly make me feel bad. I would actually hurt someone in order to have something to eat. I've even gone to the Supermarket and the back of my car is full of crisps that i've not yet opened but it's almost a bit of a comfort that they are there if it gets too much. Hubster has been ok, gave me a really nice card with a heart felt, "you're doing so well, think of laying on the beach when this is over". But to be honest is this ever really over. I can't help but think i'll go back to eating volume when i can because that's what i've always done which, i begrudge to admit, made me so overweight in the first place. I know i'm being selfish, a negative sod who's thinking about this too much and i should just pull myself together but i am thoroughly sodding miserable. Grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr, sorry xxx