Jan's Cambridge Diary
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delighted. was craving real food and just made my soup and trying veg flavour for the first time as I didnt think it would be as nice as chicken and mushroom or oriental chilli but.... its actually way nicer than chicken and mushroom and its filling me up nicely. necking back my water lol to stop cravings. gona have a mint tea soon. think im gonna do three weeks of ss then a week of ss + then onto step 2 in sept. wanna be on step three for hols in oct. x
spangles
Bouncy Castle
ok - here's something that's nothing to do with food: I'm loving reading your diary - you have a natural warmth and wit and charisma in the way you write.
Also - interested to hear how the evenings out went... it's going to be the hardest thing for me; i think i've become rather too defined by how much i drink. :/
Also - interested to hear how the evenings out went... it's going to be the hardest thing for me; i think i've become rather too defined by how much i drink. :/
awh thanks spangles xxx that comment made my day!!!
ehhhh the nights out were actually good. fri night was dodge but nothing to do with being sober just club and company werent great. went out with friends plus a group of girls we didnt know. the group got split, we left early. that sort of thing. sat night then didnt drink and the only thing i will say is come twelve o clock i was ready to leave because everyone was just getting messy and when ur sober in a pub thats filled to the hilt with irish who are have been drinking all day (its gaa (gaelic football) season at the mo so it was very busy. other than that had a great night. was out with great people and just had a good laugh ya know. then yesterday went out with my two mates and my mates new fella and all his mates and had an absolute ball. i think how a sober night can go depends on a number of things... the company your with, whether your in a pub or a club and the type of people youre with. with regard what you said about drink defining who you are, i feel that away around certain people, and i also feel that the only way i can enjoy a night out with them is when im drunk, because when im sober its like they dont want to talk to me or just think i cant be having fun like they are because im not drinking. like i went out with the two same girls fri night and yesterday and had a ball. and the two girls said you wouldnt even know i wasnt drinking. but then i went out with a diff group sat night and it wasnt as good at all. one just kept asking me, how was i not drinking, did i not find it hard, did i not miss it etc. ugh!!!! but then the others didnt even mention it. so if anything the weekend was a major eye opener, because as a girl whos barely in london a year and is still meeting new people and friends, i had worries about some people, but after spending the weekend sober, and realising that one group didnt change at all when i was drinking, but another group did, its made me kinda go, right well hmmm do i really need to be worrying about some people and what they think if the only time they can have fun with me is when im blind drunk? so i suppose what im trying to say is ask yourself who defines you by what you drink? is it you or is it your mates? and secondly if youre mates cant have fun with you on a night out just cos youre not drinking,then to be honest babe, id expand your horizons a bit with your social group. dont get me wrong, i mean drink is a huge part of todays society and its great, its good fun and i love nights out to meet people. but dont let drink define youre who you are hun, theres obv a great personality there whos up for the laugh if youre a party girl
but try bring it out without drink! its not easy hun, i mean ya know as the night goes on it does get a bit tedious when ur tired and sober at the end of the night, but having said that, i genuinely had one of the best weekends ive had since i moved over, ya know, and i spent 50 quid over three nights which basically paid for bottles of water and taxis. had a drank it wud have been triple that!!!plus i got chattn to a lad properly for the first time in ages and we had a great laugh, cos i wasnt so drunk that all i did was talk crap. even asked for my number and its been a while since thats happened!
so yeah. its different, but if u get ur head around it, and get some confidence to just throw yourself in the deep end and go out, its actualy not bad. hope that helps!
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tinkerbelluk
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Jan, loving reading your diary so far and really agree with you saying that not eating has given you some time to look at the other things in your life. I can relate to that completely.
Can't wait to hear about your weight loss later and trust me, week 2 isn't as bad. Just keep on thinking of the end goal and you'll be fine. If you find you're wavering, just stop, think and come on here so one of us can talk you down from the ledge - works for me anyway!
Can't wait to hear about your weight loss later and trust me, week 2 isn't as bad. Just keep on thinking of the end goal and you'll be fine. If you find you're wavering, just stop, think and come on here so one of us can talk you down from the ledge
- works for me anyway!lol i hear brixton is some spot!!! ah hun its just a matter of really getting your head around it. plus i threw myself in the deep end and unlike before ive stopped telling people im not drinking and let them figure it out. i mean sparkling water looks like vodka and white, or gin and tonic, it doesnt have to look like water ya know. so by the time people figure it out, theyve seen im in great form and first on the dance floor, so they generally arent that bothered and if they are well..... sod them basically. ya know. you gotta tell urself its short term and focus on the end result and just enjoy yourself literally, enjoy being yourself, its actually kinda nice!
x enjoy youre weekend and honestly, you might surprise yourself with how much fun can be had. i was so nervous as august ive a lot of social occasions on but now im like woooo bring em on!Jan, loving reading your diary so far and really agree with you saying that not eating has given you some time to look at the other things in your life. I can relate to that completely.
Can't wait to hear about your weight loss later and trust me, week 2 isn't as bad. Just keep on thinking of the end goal and you'll be fine. If you find you're wavering, just stop, think and come on here so one of us can talk you down from the ledge
awh thank you tinkerbell. its amazing how much your mindset can change if you allow it. im glad you get what i mean. ill be sure to come on here if ive any bad days cos ye lot are great. my cdc is fantastic and we talk about my relationship with food, my feelings during this week etc and she asked me was i keeping a diary so i told her about this. i mean ill be honest, this place keeps me motivated. its great to get advice and kind words and its a good place to write down some thoughts. BIG UP TO THE MINIMINS CREW!!!!
So yeah on that note I suppose I should tell you all how my weigh in went eh.....
Well it went FANTASTIC!!!!!
i lost 9lbs in my first week so i am over the moon and buzzing for week 2. seriously delighted with myself. in great form rewarded myself with a cambridge toffee bar for dinner instead of my shake. i havent bought any of the bars purely because before this ive always been a chocoholic, so much as the cambridge bars are good for me, they are still yummy and i dont want to be craving them every day when i eventually reach my goal weight as ill just fall back into old habits. so yeah delighted with myself. and ye lot are a great aul bunch for supporting me so loads of love to ye all.
on that note im off to dye my hair. my reward to myself this week was a new top, a necklace and some hair dye
night everyone. mwah xxxx
Fantastic weight loss this week!!!!
Well done
Tracey
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Haha thanks Tracey. Those cheerleading smileys made my morning!!!! x
Well my lovelies, its day 8 in the big brother house lol (day one of week 2 eeeeeeeeeek
)feeling good. had a strawberry shake for the first time this morning, it was delish!
love how they taste like ice cream!!! especially on sunny days like today hard to feel deprived lol. had a fantastic meeting with my cdc last night i <3 her. seriously shes amazing. talks to me about everything in the week, my relationship with food, how i felt throughout the week, shes just brilliant. so lucky with her and always on the other end of a call or text. makes it a lot easier. plus shes hilarious so I actually enjoy our meetings. actually one thing we talked about last night was the whole socialising/ going out with friends be it for drinks/ dinner/ lunch etc and basically one thing id advise anyone out there reading this who finds they slip in social occasions, throw yourself in the deep end from the start. dont sit at home dreading them so when they come you are so worried about it that you cave. two weeks ago the smell of food alone would have me eating for four alone! lol. then last week in the space of one week i got sent out for lunch to the yummiest places you can think of, and instead of avoiding it, i confronted my fear (yes fear i would consider myself to be petrified of food because of the lack of self control i had) of food and sat down with my colleagues and watched them eat all around them. this has paid off because last night the girls invited me to come for a milkshake to this amazing cafe called tinseltown where they have oh my god the most amazing milkshakes or all weird and cool flavours. so i went and ordered a bottle of sparkling water and you know something, i genuinely genuinely was not even half tempted. the more you test yourself the more youll prove to yourself that you can do it, but the longer you avoid normal life situations e.g. being surrounded by friends eating and drinking the more chance youll have of falling off the wagon when you do meet them. x
oooh got asked out on a date last night by a guy i met while i was sober on sunday night!!! really flattered and have slept on it and have decided that i dont want to be with anyone at the moment because im too busy just enjoying being by myself which is a nice feeling for a change. so i declined!
so today's menu continued... spicy tomato soup for lunch its a new one for me! lol can you believe im actually excited about it, you'd swear to god I was going to a gourmet restaurant!!!
then a hot vanilla and cinnamon shake for dinner. yummers! hope tuesday is going well for ye all. no doubt ill have another few entries for ye before the day is out. minimins has become my thought bucket! :family2:
mwah
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sooooooooooooooooo its lunchtime YIPPEE!!! i was starving and sick of my water lol but have learned the hard way not to give into the hunger earlier than planned unless im literally faint and dizzy, drank/ ate my cambridge meals to close to one another on sunday and i was fathomed with the hunger yesterday, makes it harder to resist when youre hungry.... so its best to be pleasantly full.
anywho had the spicy tomato soup. made it a bit too watery but all in all not bad. its called spicy for a reason tho crikey ! although to be fair after a week of creamy shakes and chicken and mushroom soups im not too surprised it has a kick to it lol. having said that im drinking as i type this and the more i drink the less spicy it seems lol.
still watering at the mouth at the thought of that cambridge toffee malt bar that i had last night :17729: (hehe i just love the smileys we have to choose from)
yeah anyway the bars, god if i was to have one of them everyday there is no way id give up chocolate when i return to normal food. defo be keeping them for the treat days!!!
not much else to report guys. bored here at work. not a huge pile to do and sunshine is nice to look at but even nicer to be out in so quite frankly im a bit jealous im not off gallivanting
hope ye're all doing great today x x x
anywho had the spicy tomato soup. made it a bit too watery but all in all not bad. its called spicy for a reason tho crikey !
although to be fair after a week of creamy shakes and chicken and mushroom soups im not too surprised it has a kick to it lol. having said that im drinking as i type this and the more i drink the less spicy it seems lol.still watering at the mouth at the thought of that cambridge toffee malt bar that i had last night :17729: (hehe i just love the smileys we have to choose from)
yeah anyway the bars, god if i was to have one of them everyday there is no way id give up chocolate when i return to normal food. defo be keeping them for the treat days!!!
not much else to report guys. bored here at work. not a huge pile to do and sunshine is nice to look at but even nicer to be out in so quite frankly im a bit jealous im not off gallivanting
hope ye're all doing great today x x x
Thanks babypat. Ive a fair aul way to go but Ill get there!!!! its been a good start and looking forward to the weeks to come. finally feel like i can and will reach my goal weight.
right everyone i have a friends 30th birthday on the 20th of this month so 2 and a half weeks to go. determined to be down a good bit by then as i want to look amazing in my costume. its fancy dress but i want to look sexy without going down the road of like police woman costumes etc. i wanted to go burlesque cos lets face it corsets are a creation of sheer and utter genius but the birthday girl is going can can soooo ive decided on lady bird but with a twist.
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ive bought this (in a size 18 because they didnt have 20. the measurements are small enough so heres hoping it bloody fits! its adjustable at the back so should be fine. we shall see!!! anywho im gonna stick polka dots on it and ive bought wings and a matching hair band with my poppers
gonna get some back suspenders/ vintage tights and do my hair in an unbelievable hairstyle. let me know what ye all think?Jan xxxxx
ok the weird thing about this diet is the abundance of useless energy i have lol. like im wide awake, but i dont want to do anything. its weird. or maybe im just used to being lazy. anywho it got me thinking. my belly is where i carry the most weight. im very lucky my legs have none, and my arms and back arent the worst however while im aware that its not recommended to do a lot of exercise while on sole source i do want to introduce some toning exercises to avoid a lot of sagging plus im gonna make a habit of wearing my toning belt a bit more. every little helps!!!! so as of tomorrow i am hoping to do a series of toning exercises including stomach exercises, and press ups. heres hoping xxx
so as of tomorrow i am hoping to do a series of toning exercises including stomach exercises, and press ups. heres hoping xxxTall fat and greedy
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Hi, your diary is great and very interesting about the whole drinking with friends etc. I think your tip if having a fizzy water and not making a fuss is really true and people don't really care as long as you are joining in! Good luck and keep posting.
Oh and I wake at funny times on this diet! Plus OH and DS are both on planes tonight so am feeling slightly paranoid about them being up in the sky!
Oh and I wake at funny times on this diet! Plus OH and DS are both on planes tonight so am feeling slightly paranoid about them being up in the sky!
Thanks tall fat and greedy
Firstly can I just say that you need to change your name to something more positive hun!!!! they say a person attracts the thoughts they put out, so put up a positive name and change your perception of yourself...Secondly Yeah defo. If you go out in bad form and tell people youre not drinking then people will notice, but if you go out happy and act like youre not even bothered and join in in the craic, people dont mind as much
Awh hope they landed safe. xxx
ok so everyone the bad day has finally arrived lol. to be fair day 9 and first day feeling crappy aint bad. woke up at 1.49am thinking i was choking. very scary. had a lump in my throat like food or something but obv no food there. my ears are in a weird way. awful sensation of the blood flowing through them. very regular feeling this and i dont like it. bit congested also and have a good bit of mucus down back of throat.anyway drawing conclusion that this along with headache which i contribute also to lack of sleep last night, might be leaning towards a sinus infection... grrrrrrrr. not a bad one mind you. it sounds a lot worse. i mean ive energy, im by no means weak and im not craving sugar and bad food at all. ill be honest id love a good sandwich today lol. anywho i suffer from sinuses along with a minor allergy to dairy and gluten, so im gonna go with idea that this feeling crap might be my bodies way of clearing it all out
if it gets worse ill go doctor, but i really don't thinks its antibiotic worthy, more of a good sleep me thinks.knocking back the water. and mint tea. excited about my veg soup at 1... not too hungry which is good, just feel particularly meh. having said that wearing a dress that wouldn't fit two weeks ago today and hair is lovely since i put the colour in it. era it could be worse. might have to pop some painkillers and antihistamines soon.
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right so had a chat with myself and went out for a walk in this glorious sunshine to get some painkillers. feel a bit better after it got myself some nurofen. now to just make it to one o clock to have my soup, then get through the afternoon lol. very tired today grrrrrr and my ears feel blocked. ugh not fun. having said that though normally when this sick i go "awh im sick lets just eat. im run down. so i have to eat (The entire contents of sainsbury's normally lol) whereas "today im like meh, id love a sandwich with my soup but i cant have a sandwich with my soup so just deal with it, quit whining and drink your water" hehe.
on a good note tho, today i am loving my reflection can see the weight loss and feel fantastic. gonna buy a bikini at the end of sole source for my hols in october as a reward to myself.
ohhhhh also forgot to tell you all. right ive been thinking about my reward for when i reach my goal weight. ok so to cut a long story short. my dad had cancer two years ago (he is fantastic now so no worrying its all good ) but during the time he was ill, id to move home to help with the family business, and my long term relationship ended and all in all it was just one of those years that im glad ended well. anyway the point of my rambling is.... one day dont ask me where or how, but I saw the words "live love and laugh" and I said wow if I was to ever get a tattoo I would love it to be those words. however I am a very indecisive person who swore she would never get one but I dunno maybe the past few years have softened me and told me to live it up a bit more. So i said to myself right if in three years time you still want the same tattoo then go for it. Anyway its over two years now and I still want it. Gonna get it somewhere discreet, I am thinking on my side up around the ribs (Im aware of how painful this is meant to be lol ) So yeah I have decided I am getting the tattoo when I reach my goal weight
Sorry Ive been in and out of the office while writing this so my mood has changed dramatically since I started it well over two hours ago lol. Firstly, godbless nurofen and water. I feel much better, my ears arent as sore and I think Ill make it through the day lol. Went on a few errands in the sunshine and that picked up my spirits. swigging away at the water... did i mention that i think water is key in this (lol only like fifty million times jan!!!)
also next week in the office the directors are away and my boss taking a few days off so itll be a nice week. then my sister is over to me with my two gorgeous nieces who i miss fierce so im off the following monday and then the weekend after that is a bank holiday. so HAPPY days.
Ive cheered up now defo. god bless sunshine and god bless painkillers xxxxxxx
(ok so its one o clock now YAY SOUP TIME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
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got myself some nurofen. now to just make it to one o clock to have my soup, then get through the afternoon lol. very tired today grrrrrr and my ears feel blocked. ugh not fun. having said that though normally when this sick i go "awh im sick lets just eat. im run down. so i have to eat (The entire contents of sainsbury's normally lol) whereas "today im like meh, id love a sandwich with my soup but i cant have a sandwich with my soup so just deal with it, quit whining and drink your water" hehe. on a good note tho, today i am loving my reflection
can see the weight loss and feel fantastic. gonna buy a bikini at the end of sole source for my hols in october as a reward to myself.ohhhhh also forgot to tell you all. right ive been thinking about my reward for when i reach my goal weight. ok so to cut a long story short. my dad had cancer two years ago (he is fantastic now so no worrying its all good
) but during the time he was ill, id to move home to help with the family business, and my long term relationship ended and all in all it was just one of those years that im glad ended well. anyway the point of my rambling is.... one day dont ask me where or how, but I saw the words "live love and laugh" and I said wow if I was to ever get a tattoo I would love it to be those words. however I am a very indecisive person who swore she would never get one but I dunno maybe the past few years have softened me and told me to live it up a bit more. So i said to myself right if in three years time you still want the same tattoo then go for it. Anyway its over two years now and I still want it. Gonna get it somewhere discreet, I am thinking on my side up around the ribs (Im aware of how painful this is meant to be lol ) So yeah I have decided I am getting the tattoo when I reach my goal weight Sorry Ive been in and out of the office while writing this so my mood has changed dramatically since I started it well over two hours ago lol. Firstly, godbless nurofen and water. I feel much better, my ears arent as sore and I think Ill make it through the day lol. Went on a few errands in the sunshine and that picked up my spirits. swigging away at the water... did i mention that i think water is key in this
(lol only like fifty million times jan!!!)also next week in the office the directors are away and my boss taking a few days off so itll be a nice week. then my sister is over to me with my two gorgeous nieces who i miss fierce so im off the following monday and then the weekend after that is a bank holiday. so HAPPY days.
Ive cheered up now defo. god bless sunshine and god bless painkillers
xxxxxxx(ok so its one o clock now YAY SOUP TIME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
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spangles
Bouncy Castle
That's a great idea!
I have a tattoo on my foot to remember my dad, who died a couple of years ago. It's a line from the Song 'Well, did you evah?' from the musical High Society. My dad used do hum the song loads and the line "what a swell party this is..." sums up his happy-every-day, accentuate-the-positive attitude to life. One I'd do well to remember - i'm prone to worrying and catastrophising.
I have a tattoo on my foot to remember my dad, who died a couple of years ago. It's a line from the Song 'Well, did you evah?' from the musical High Society. My dad used do hum the song loads and the line "what a swell party this is..." sums up his happy-every-day, accentuate-the-positive attitude to life. One I'd do well to remember - i'm prone to worrying and catastrophising.
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Awh thats a gorgeous tattoo and the meaning behind it is lovely.
i too am prone to worrying but ive defo got better. i read the secret on and off until i got to the end. its a book by rhonda byrne and it really works. all about positivity. i am a tad obsessed but i mean we all have our bad days. thankfully mine are limited lately (touches wood) yeah i want one kind of on the top of my side near the rib cage at the same height as my breasts, id say once i start i wont stop but im extremely excited about it
wow cant believe how much better im feeling since this morning. had my soup there and it was yummers. still quite tired tho x
cant believe we're half way through wednesday. where does the time go to? Monday doesnt even see remotely far away now have perked up majorly, really really proud of myself, like seriously two weeks ago waking up the way I felt this morning i would have ate my way through the morning and felt horrific by now. food has always been such an emotions thing, a good day meant a nice lunch, a great day meant a nice lunch and dinner and a few drinks, a really bad day meant a comfort takeway and my duvet.... you get the idea. but i dunno the past week and a half ive really been able to study my feelings, and look at the times in a week id turn to food, only obviously not being able to. ive really been able to study my eating patterns and feelings. loving cambridge :talk017:
the heat is gorgeous today. making it so much easier to slug at the water too love summer! even if we only get a week of it a year lol x
tonights plan is to hit my mates back garden with my chocolate shake on the go and just kickback. after being in an office all day im glad ive no excuse to go home to bed, looking forward to the fresh air xxx
have perked up majorly, really really proud of myself, like seriously two weeks ago waking up the way I felt this morning i would have ate my way through the morning and felt horrific by now. food has always been such an emotions thing, a good day meant a nice lunch, a great day meant a nice lunch and dinner and a few drinks, a really bad day meant a comfort takeway and my duvet.... you get the idea. but i dunno the past week and a half ive really been able to study my feelings, and look at the times in a week id turn to food, only obviously not being able to. ive really been able to study my eating patterns and feelings. loving cambridge :talk017:the heat is gorgeous today. making it so much easier to slug at the water too
love summer! even if we only get a week of it a year lol xtonights plan is to hit my mates back garden with my chocolate shake on the go and just kickback. after being in an office all day im glad ive no excuse to go home to bed, looking forward to the fresh air
xxxhi all. so its almost midnight, which means day 9 is over already and i cant believe it tis crazy. only two and a half more weeks on ss..... actually not counting the days seriously, its not as bad as i ever imagined and ive enjoyed the control and break from binging etc. today was a good day in the end. had a sneaky weigh in at a mates house and am just hovering if not a bit under 92 kilos. mind you that was in just a bra and knickers however im defo down from monday already drank sooooooooo much water today with the heat. id say well over four litres, it was just so hot. thats prob a bit too much but the heat was killer, couldnt quench my thirst, struggling with the taste and dryness in my mouth to be honest. oooh got about 50 min of walking in today so that was good. determined to see ss through for the four weeks, then do step two for two weeks and then onto step three (step three is also where jan will be joining a gym of some sort!!!!)
im off to bed. bring on day ten xxx
drank sooooooooo much water today with the heat. id say well over four litres, it was just so hot. thats prob a bit too much but the heat was killer, couldnt quench my thirst, struggling with the taste and dryness in my mouth to be honest. oooh got about 50 min of walking in today so that was good. determined to see ss through for the four weeks, then do step two for two weeks and then onto step three (step three is also where jan will be joining a gym of some sort!!!!)im off to bed. bring on day ten xxx
