Jaynes' Cambridge Diary

day seven

Weigh-in this morning... 6lb off. Slightly dissapointed (am so impatient!!) but only started on saturday so is only 6 full days so I know deep down it is a good loss. T.O.T.M not arrived yet so am definately a bit bloated but its a good start and as I've coped ok this week I know I need to keep going and not be ungrateful it is still going in the right direction. Am hoping for 5lb this week! (may again be a bit ambitious) but am going to do a bit more, as you may have read from my diary I did a lot of sleeping this last week and scheduled my start of the diet to when I wasnt working lots, so dont think my calorie requirements were as big as they could be!
 
day eight

hey all... t.o.t.m month arrived in early hours so was right about the bloating. Had a manic 13 hour shift at the hospital today so feeling a bit shaky tonight but that could also be due to period im sure. dont feel hungry in my mind so think I can resist! hope we all enjoying x-factor! friends visiting tomorrow.... will have to sit and watch them eat lunch ah well! Think thin!!!
 
day ten

Missed day nine as couldnt get on here as friend staying over. Yesterday not the best day.. had 3 friends over had lunch plans with them, I emailed them all weeks ago when we planned the date that I wouldnt be eating much to warn them as was dieting... but there were still unsupportive, i didnt tell them im on CD (they have never had to diet so would have never heard of it anyway) just said im on a strict calorie controlled diet. Straight away friend one (size 6 despite only having a 5 month old baby, her third!) said 'it doesnt work' just like that. there was a constant debate about where to go for lunch because of me. I kept saying dont worry about me im fine. Then they all stared at me when i was looking at the menu. I had to order a salad I obviously didnt want which i just picked and pushed around my plate and the atmosphere and dissaproving looks were tense. Then one of them stayed over so I didnt get to have my shakes just had nothing which i know is not good for me... i just couldnt cope with any more negative vibes. I was telling one of them about my BMI and being 'obese' and they were just like ' your not obese', i was like yes I am its a fact! so that has made me feel a bit down about it all. Although more determined to stick at it and to prove it does work!! Although my home scales not being friendly at the moment!
hoping for a better day today. got a friend coming over who does understand and is bringing her own food! hope you all have agood monday.
xx
 
Janey well done for getting through with your 'friends'! I completely undertstand how difficult it must have been for you and you really showed determination not to cave in to their "sabotaging" of your diet plan. I am doing CD for the second time and this time I am being selfish about it. I am doing CD to lose weight for me, for how I feel for stopping myself being sick and tired of being sick and tired. I vowed I would not let anyone's comments, or attempts to cajole me into just "having a bit" or "your not fat" "you've lost enough" etc etc. I found taking a stand and simply not budging people realised how determined I am to stick to it and that I dont' want to undo my real hard work. If I get negative comments I don't reply and just nod my head or smile and drink my water. If I feel I want to reply I say the easy bit is losing the weigh the real hard bit is maintaining and I am aware that challenge it yet to come. DON'T let anyone derail you after all your efforts. (sorry I do feel so strongly about friends/family sabotage!)
 
thanks kira... I was pretty angry about it and i was glad when they all went home to be honest!! If i had actually gone through full details of the CD diet im on (ie shake soup porridge only!) i dread to think of their reaction! But your attitude is admirable and you are right we are only doing this for ourselves! there not the ones who have to live in our bodies and our lives!
 
Catching up here jayney, firstly, great weight loss in 6 days - very well done to you!

I have had a similar issue in the past with friends, like the one who insisted on eating lunch on an outside table at a cafe on the pier at Southend, knowing that I was freezing because of ketosis and the powder from my CD shake was blowing away with the wind, as I tried to mix a drink, and my black coffee went cold - it was a completely miserable experience

I just gritted my teeth and thought, I will have the last laugh when I'm slim - my friend is overweight

I never reacted, just smiled sweetly. I saw her at the weekend and she complimented my weight loss, infact today via email we have arranged a couple of concerts to go to together this month, so its all in the past. And I am congratulating her with her progress on Slimming World, each of us to our own preferred methods.

You are doing this diet for the most important reason of all - YOU and your future happiness - so just carry on and you will do great.
All the best for your next weigh-in x
 
day twelve

Hey everyone...
had a tough day diet wise as I was leaving a teaching job I do part time (i work clinical most of the time), they have been planning all week to have cakes and i kept saying no thanks but of course they went ahead! I didnt want to go into the whole diet thing as Im leaving it seemed a bit pointless. Anyway i managed to be a little late for my 'party' (oops) so everyone had digged in and then i managed not to eat. I just drank coke zero ( i know its not allowed but if i drank water they would have been seriously asking questions!) so thank god thats through. Except for the permanent minging tongue I am feeling pretty great, although very worried about the scales, i wanted to lose 5 this week but according to my scales i am exactly the same if not the odd pound more. I have tested my wee morning and night and am permanently in ketosis and have not slipped one bit (i would not lie about it) so am a bit clueless as to how i can be ketotic but not losing weight? Have a i got very resistent fat cells?!! vSo weigh in fri and wish i was looking forward to it more but fingers crossed it will just drop off suddenly before then!
 
Hi Jayney

Many people find that their home scales play strange tricks, I've read it so often here. People expecting to have lost 2 pounds according to their own scales report on a much bigger loss etc when they see their counsellor. Just carry and you will be fine - its best not to have a particular number of pounds in mind for this week, as it all evens out over a month x
 
Thanks for that post Blingbabe... I always tell myself carrying on is more important that what the scales show and never hope for a figure on the scales as I know how easily expectations can derail me... but despite this I"ve been cursing because mine haven't budged and wi tomorrow...nice to have that reminder! xxx
 
Day thirteen

im weighing tomorrow contrarytintagel and I must admit i am panicking a bit as this morning scales still say I have not lost a jot so am not expecting great things. I have to keep going though even though im sure it will make me cry if i dont lose! Because if this doesnt work for me im not sure what will, and i am so in control of my eating and not hungry at all which i always am on other diets so i want it to be successful it has to be! and common sense tells me it has to come off eventually, i mean we are having very low calories!
fingers crossed for all of us weighing the next few days! I am meeting friends for lunch today...or not, am going to arrive after the lunch! Hope you all have a great day. Move weight move!
 
Hey Jayney, The scales moved! Four pounds down this week - which is phenomenal for me (I'm a 3lb max girl normally). I really think loose leaf green tea is making a huge difference. I'm 10 stone 9lbs today. 2lbs from goal although I'm going to have a crack at reseting my goal and aim for 10 once I hit 10.7. The thing to remember with this diet is if you stay the same one week you usually lose twice as much the next week, so never ruin your success by going off the rails (easier said than done !!) Good luck for today. You've done incredibly well with so many social events - and in your first couple of weeks! I was a complete hermit for two months! On a personal (nursy) note I'm having real problems at work but don't know where to turn. I haven't found the rcn very useful in the past and management are unable to help due to being in an icky position themselves....bit stuck and having nightmares now from fretting...any ideas?
 
well done contrary!! you must be so pleased with your loss! my w.i is tomorrow, OMG i hope that happens to me and the scaled whoosh! Am drinking more water than ever so think i am full of that as weigh a few lbs more tonight!! god help me tomorrow. am just hoping its my home scales that are totally unreliable (please god) as to be fair they have always been a bit unruly no matter what diet im on. i should throw them away. Maybe buy better ones! I know it can slow but just thought the first few weeks i wouldnt have to worry about that!
Im sorry to hear you are having bother at work. im not sure what to suggest im afraid. Im a m/w so in rcm and they can be so so, but i know when friends has work issues they have actually been very good. Maybe try the rcn and if they are no use maybe change unions to unison if you think it is there thing? Or if it is anyway legal pay for one off legal advice? good luck with it. Please tell my scales to move.
 
Jayney's scales MOVE!!!!!!! And yep chuck em. Even better, don't buy any more until you're nice and settled on the diet :) Spoke to the RCN and they were actually rather good. Have to get everything down on paper and they're allocating me a rep to help. Conditions scary so I have to make sure I've voiced concerns in writing as well as incident forms. Feel much better now! xxx
 
Well done contrarytintagel on weight loss - 4lb's, thats brilliant when you are so close to goal.
I have been a paid up member of both RCN in the past and now Unison, luckily I have never needed to use either of them in past 22 years but you never know when that could change. In my organisation Unison are the strongest and most effective, but glad that RCN are giving you the help you need x
 
Think I might have sent a blank response by error, oops if that's the case.
Contrarytintagel, I mustered up the courage to start MSc in Nursing a couple of years ago, hadn't studied for years. We were told at uni that members of RCN had an advantage because of access to online library etc, but I (no longer in RCN) found that there was more research and specialist journals in the uni library than I knew what to do with. My employer (public sector but not NHS) pays for us to have Athens account which I know the other girls (there was only one fellow!) on my course got via their NHS trusts.

But the important thing is to have some kind of professional association/union support.

Can't wait to be so close to ideal weight, like you, it must be very exciting, your achievement is very inspiring x
 
day fourteen

Weigh day! Only lost 2lb! obviously totally gutted but I could have stayed the same so could be worse. Have no idea what is going wrong, drinking loads of water, not slipped one iota and permanently in ketosis! My CDC says im the slowest she has ever seen it come off. Am just hoping my body will catch up at some point. My CDC says she doesnt know what my body is living off! Anyhow am keeping going as i said i have no choice if this doesnt work I have no idea what will. I would be one of those bariatric surgery patients who doesnt lose weight!! Will try not to get too down about it, its just that I was hoping to start telling more people and thinking that if they got negative my losses would shut them up, but now they will always know someone who lost more on ww! Can have the bars now but only got 3 dont want to have one everyday and ruin my 'fabulous' weight loss (!). Hope you all having a good day. Regarding the journal thing, I did my masters degree finished it in 2006, it was a big stress with working full time but now Im really proud. The library access to journals at uni's are so much better than having the paper copies, its just the cost of getting things printed etc but is easier than leafing through a journal thinking 'i know a good article was in here somewhere'. Right must stay strong and not let negative thoughts enter my mind! boo hoo....:cry::cry::cry:
 
Hey Jayney, Have to say I think your losses are good! I know some people have huge ones but erm... try not to look at anyone elses but focus upon all the good things you've done this week, and what your weight would be if you hadn't done those things...

It averages as 4lb a week which is fantastic! Keep plodding on my love!!
 
Yep Jayney, keep going! Although I weigh every fortnight, I have certainly had a week when my loss would have been about 2 pounds.
Sometimes I have wished for bigger losses compared to what others have achieved but I can honestly say that this is the best thing I have done for myself for ages - people at work have said this week how good I am looking - it really is worth perservering, you'll be so pleased you did!
 
thank you both so much as ever... I will try not to be too inpatient. I am really enjoying the diet (as in not being hungry, not thinking about food, not having guilt about food etc) so far so really will give it my best shot, i just have to keep telling myself it has to come off eventually!! sooner rather than later would be nice!!
 
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