DAY 55
Scales: 12st 4lb.
Tells its own story I guess, and yes, Chels & SS, have been off the rails. Again. I am so sick of this that I did think hard over weekend about whether I could come back here, I worry about letting people down and also bringing people down/making them wobble with my repeated falls. For that reason will not post details here, but binge territory once more and I am feeling so sad, so lost right now. I really haven't a clue what to do.
I do not want to give up or give in, and that's why I am posting, without a doubt I am the most stubborn and resistant to learning/change, person ever. I exasperate myself. Whatever I am doing is not working, so I need a new plan, and until I can find one am taking refuge in an SS day.
I am also going to start over with Beck, and with another book ordered at the same time which I never got around to looking at.
Thanks for being there lovely minis peeps, and so sorry for the suicide leap. Death by Chocolate? Doesn't sound quite so amusing from where I am standing.
xxx