Oh no ken :-( Sounds a bit like you've hit that 'rock bottom, nowhere else to go but up' place through; bit of determination kicking in?! C'mon man. You know you can do it if you find that zone! If i can, you can!!
Well, it's simple really isn't it.. You can either feel bad and not grasp the motivation to get stuck in and transform yourself, and in 3 months feel the same as you do now, and the next 3 months after that...
Or you can get stuck in now, get it done, and in 3 months feel amazing, look back and think THANK GOD I STARTED THEN! Come on, Start now. Good luck xx
I'm refeeding ATM ken and I know exactly how you feel... It's ridiculous, healthy food shopping costs atleast twice what fattening food shopping costs =(