The Journey
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Wow I haven't been here in a while...
Recap of the days I've missed:
Monday: 2400 cals. That was an uncalled for and unexpected high calorie day which I shouldn't have had. What happened is I started binging to I decided to make it into a high calorie day in order to put a stop to it. That's not the best by any means but I think it's better than 3000 to 4000 cals. I need to put a stop to this excess eating though! There are no excuses. I either want this or I don't. If I do, I just need to try harder on the eating front!
That said I did good on exercise. 40 mins of Cardio.
Tuesday: My sister came over for an unexpected and unannounced visit = threw my day off.
Basically I have a very strained relationship with this sister. She's extremely domineering and just plain annoying. Result = no exercise!!!
I didn't exercise because she's nosy and it's embarassing for me. My sister is anorexic so she's VERY skinny. Like bones skinny, and she already looks at me weird whenever she comes over. She's always been in competition with me (one sided competition, since I don't try to compete with her, but it's still a pain in my ***) and I think it makes her happy that I weigh a lot more than her or something...
So anyways there was no way I was exercising around her. I haven't told her I'm on a diet nor do I plan to, because everytime I have she's tried to sabotage it. I remember in earlier years I'd try to go on a diet and then all of a sudden she'd be making cookies everyday. and as much as I dislike her, her cookies are very good. Usually I'd refuse and then she'd get all upset and say she took all this time to make cookies so I HAD to eat them blah blah.
Wow I really went off topic here! I guess I'm just trying to explain why it's so hard when she's around. So I'm happy she no longer lives here!
I also feel uncomfortable eating when she's around so 1000 cals for the day.
We had a drinking party (because she's also alchoolic) and I'm proud to say I only had one cup of wine
Anyways, she's gone and I"m back on track with the exercising. Of course whenever I miss a day of exercising getting back to it the next day is SO HARD! I don't know why it's like that for me.. Some people exercise 5 days, take the weekend off and then get right back to it. They enjoy their days off but it's not a huge trial to exercise come monday. It doesn't work that way for me. If I take just one day completely off exercise I usually stop completely. At least that's what I've done in the past. I'm forming new habits though now so...
Wednesday: 40 mins strength training!!! Now you have to understand for me that was a HUGE success. I know it doesn't sound like much, but just mustering up the courage to press play was a big deal, and then halfway through I stopped, I'd given up. I just felt so unmotivated and it also being TOTM I just felt like crap! But I ended up writing down some of those goals and pressed play again!! I was so happy when the exercise video came to an end because I'd made it all the way through!
I had 1900 cals that day though which is NOT a good thing!
I think the reason it's so hard for me to keep my calories down is because during the christmas season I bake almost everyday. I'm "in charge" of the baking so I have to make the cookies, etc... Some of you may be able to do this fine and not eat any of their creations. I'm not one of those people. I put a lot of thought into my baking and choosing the recipes ect, so I just have to have some. Also because I do the baking I also have allthis baking chocolate lying around (which is the only chocolate I like, the other stuff is too sweet), plus a bunch of nuts, and other junk....
I really thought the christmas season wasn't going to make much of a difference to my diet, except of christmas day itself but with all these temptations I am finding it harder... which means I just have to try harder!
Uh oh, I rambled on again...
Today: 1700 cals, which is Good! Woopie, although I'm still eating too much in the evening which I am going to have to find a solution to!
Exercise: 50 mins Cardio / Abs
Good workout, good eating = happy me
My goal for the rest of the week is going to be to pay more attention to what I'm eating and the times I'm eating it. Also need to have more veggies!!
I can't see if i've lost any weight yet as it's TOTM... grrr..
I have to say through that I am seeing definate results in my body, especially stomach and arms area. My arms are getting toned and I can really feel my triceps and biceps. They're also getting thinner and I'm losing the "muffin top" on my belly, which is very very nice.
I think doing more exercise is really working for me. I'm really hoping for at least 2 lbs lost on Monday, but either way, I know what I'm doing is working because I am seeing the results in my body everyday, which is really what I'm after!
Recap of the days I've missed:
Monday: 2400 cals. That was an uncalled for and unexpected high calorie day which I shouldn't have had. What happened is I started binging to I decided to make it into a high calorie day in order to put a stop to it. That's not the best by any means but I think it's better than 3000 to 4000 cals. I need to put a stop to this excess eating though! There are no excuses. I either want this or I don't. If I do, I just need to try harder on the eating front!
That said I did good on exercise. 40 mins of Cardio.
Tuesday: My sister came over for an unexpected and unannounced visit = threw my day off.
Basically I have a very strained relationship with this sister. She's extremely domineering and just plain annoying. Result = no exercise!!!
I didn't exercise because she's nosy and it's embarassing for me. My sister is anorexic so she's VERY skinny. Like bones skinny, and she already looks at me weird whenever she comes over. She's always been in competition with me (one sided competition, since I don't try to compete with her, but it's still a pain in my ***) and I think it makes her happy that I weigh a lot more than her or something...
So anyways there was no way I was exercising around her. I haven't told her I'm on a diet nor do I plan to, because everytime I have she's tried to sabotage it. I remember in earlier years I'd try to go on a diet and then all of a sudden she'd be making cookies everyday. and as much as I dislike her, her cookies are very good. Usually I'd refuse and then she'd get all upset and say she took all this time to make cookies so I HAD to eat them blah blah.
Wow I really went off topic here! I guess I'm just trying to explain why it's so hard when she's around. So I'm happy she no longer lives here!
I also feel uncomfortable eating when she's around so 1000 cals for the day.
We had a drinking party (because she's also alchoolic) and I'm proud to say I only had one cup of wine
Anyways, she's gone and I"m back on track with the exercising. Of course whenever I miss a day of exercising getting back to it the next day is SO HARD! I don't know why it's like that for me.. Some people exercise 5 days, take the weekend off and then get right back to it. They enjoy their days off but it's not a huge trial to exercise come monday. It doesn't work that way for me. If I take just one day completely off exercise I usually stop completely. At least that's what I've done in the past. I'm forming new habits though now so...
Wednesday: 40 mins strength training!!! Now you have to understand for me that was a HUGE success. I know it doesn't sound like much, but just mustering up the courage to press play was a big deal, and then halfway through I stopped, I'd given up. I just felt so unmotivated and it also being TOTM I just felt like crap! But I ended up writing down some of those goals and pressed play again!! I was so happy when the exercise video came to an end because I'd made it all the way through!
I had 1900 cals that day though which is NOT a good thing!
I think the reason it's so hard for me to keep my calories down is because during the christmas season I bake almost everyday. I'm "in charge" of the baking so I have to make the cookies, etc... Some of you may be able to do this fine and not eat any of their creations. I'm not one of those people. I put a lot of thought into my baking and choosing the recipes ect, so I just have to have some. Also because I do the baking I also have allthis baking chocolate lying around (which is the only chocolate I like, the other stuff is too sweet), plus a bunch of nuts, and other junk....
I really thought the christmas season wasn't going to make much of a difference to my diet, except of christmas day itself but with all these temptations I am finding it harder... which means I just have to try harder!
Uh oh, I rambled on again...
Today: 1700 cals, which is Good! Woopie, although I'm still eating too much in the evening which I am going to have to find a solution to!
Exercise: 50 mins Cardio / Abs
Good workout, good eating = happy me
My goal for the rest of the week is going to be to pay more attention to what I'm eating and the times I'm eating it. Also need to have more veggies!!
I can't see if i've lost any weight yet as it's TOTM... grrr..
I have to say through that I am seeing definate results in my body, especially stomach and arms area. My arms are getting toned and I can really feel my triceps and biceps. They're also getting thinner and I'm losing the "muffin top" on my belly, which is very very nice.
I think doing more exercise is really working for me.
I'm really hoping for at least 2 lbs lost on Monday, but either way, I know what I'm doing is working because I am seeing the results in my body everyday, which is really what I'm after!
